outweighing the out weighed. everything looks better in plaid. or through plaid. all those neaty lined.lines. up and down. side to side. kilts.are.lucky. for a number of reasons. i took bus 1 to destination 1 today. i took bus 2 back to the beginning. i took a few small things fram sarah. i owed her that much. nothing she/ll miss of course. nothing huge or costly. i only steal what wont be missed. or noticed. i used to do it a.lot. before. especially when visiting joeandjoels. nothing too much. or anything they/d care a thing about. few pieces of weed. few cds.or.dvds. a hat or two maybe. nothing major. i steal more for memory then anything. who knows if i/ll ever be back where i was. or invited in again. so i might as well take all i can during that visit. to even out the score of course. but. im reasoning here. its more compulsive i believe. an obsession i cant dismiss by lying and giving it a reason to exist. i just have too many bad habits. too. many. bad. fucking. habits. that no one really notices. which is fine by me. i like when no one cares. when no one cares. you can get away with more. so. danielles basically handing out her body for a few chump.cents. so far shes let an old man touch her ass. shes showed her tits. and. gotten naked in a hottub. and. they said she wouldnt amount to anything. if only they could see her now. so. i leave town. and my dear cousin becomes a prostitute in a matter of months. not to mention her boyfriends going to get my bike taken ever so smoothly away. but. those are the breaks. its funny in a way. it could be worse. ray could be me and renting my car out. like i did joe. its karmatic i believe. paybacks are a bitch. joe would get a kick out of knowing what dear old danielle was doing now. joelandhim would probably bust a gut. aimmee/d get a kick too i believe. its always funny. from the other side. i find it depressing that this is it for her. this is what shes willing to do instead of trying to make something else happen. shes too lazy to take it the hard way. its a shame. she should be in vegas. at least out here she could make a bit more of a killing. christsake. danielles a fuck. im trying to get my finances in order. few more hundred to joe. and i can write him off as paidfor. then pay a hundred to erick for a few weeks. and he/ll be good and done. then sarah. and then i can fucking do something else. maybe move again. maybe see what california has to offer. or find somewhere else in vegas to stay. or save a few hundred and blow it strickly on booze and drugs. now that sounds lovely. i hope work keeps going well. i dont like worrying. and i dont feel very well right now. damnit.