needing a job is worse then having no job. being unemployed is a dream until you need to pay your gas bill. car insurance. water. sewer. electric shock therapy for one please. waking up is breaking down. the system. things have come. and they have gone. and i'm left here with a once broken foot. a red nose. a burning addiction. and loneliness eating away at my soul. and it all has grown so cold. and distant. and i need money please. give me reason please. fuck you. life.