Haven't been doing much. Like usual. Can't remember last night. Don't really care. Need some weed. Need something. Stimulating. Penetrating. Elevating. The mind. It isn't easy being a bad person. Plaguing guilt. Regret always around the corner. Pity the fool. Doesn't bother the heart much anymore. Doesn't really bother the mind. Learn to adjust to the facts. Accept the truth. Can only sit and wait for it all to crash down. For all the pieces to crumble. Fall away. It's cold here. Need to do something active today. Jump around. Run. Walk. Something. The dog barks so loud. So often. Bustd eardrums. Today is not a good day to live. Done for now.