and i promise this should be painless.

im waiting for her. i picture her eyes and her hair and her little hands.

i wonder how it must be for her. assuming she assumes that inside of me is all there is.

does she ever think about some other world. does she dream about what might someday happen and where she might someday find herself.

is she into all of that yet. or is her mind just blank and full of the secrets of the universe.

all of the awesomeness she's doomed to forget once this world takes over.

will she like me. will i like her. i know ill love her thats a given, but you dont always like those you love.

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her fathers stupidity drives me nuts at times.

we're both so busy being suspicious of one another i dont know if we have time to cheat.

so self obsessed about being hurt.

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the people i work with tire me out.

bleh. i think i should stop now before this becomes some bitch session.