im not sure where it began or where it will end. but. here we are. day number 5 all over again, but ill take it.

being sober is being the best me, no matter how boring or painful. i guess im here to stay this time. or so i hope.

i wish things were easier to redo as they are to do. was losing weight and gained it back plus some. was sober and began drinking so my body went from hey not so bad to emergency we're on fire.

idk.

i dont know where to begin. can one just pick up and decide to get back into art and writing and poetry and music. can you just pick up and attempt to be something when now all of the somethings are literally 12 years old.

idk.

im not sure what i know a