irritated. but arent we all right now. in this moment.

im mad that i picked the wrong guy to be close too.

im mad that my drinking is back and my liver is achy and that this is just what it is.

im mad about many things.

and sad all the same.

lonely for connection and mocked by a person i thoguht i was gaining ground with.

idk.

i wish i could runaway.

pause time so my kids dont notice and take off for awhile.

a long while.

find my head again.

find my heart.

but.

we never get those breaks do we.