wedding planning is hard :[

I still have no dress. pam thinks that is smart, well maybe but it was unintentional. does it still make it smart? she told my mom that its better to spend money on the other stuff first and what you have left over on the dress so you get a practical dress. psh. i don't want to shop for a practical dress. if my dress happens to be practical it would be better but i would like to shop for the perfect dress, regardless of how practical. yeah, I'm kinda dumb.

but it made me want to start designing wedding dresses lol. I'm sure i'm not the only one who hates modern dresses.

one thing I've noticed from wedding dress shopping... all wedding dresses are alike. in a different sort of way. but they are all beachy, or if you want a red carpet wedding. and all the ball gowns look like cincineta (sp?) dresses. and then the costume dresses. what ever happened to the traditional, classic wedding dress? the not so cheesy tulle skirts and the not so covered with beads bodices? I hate beads. I learned this week that I have expensive tastes. which means I am awesome... but suck at the same time. blah. which means i won't be able to do what i want and have to settle for something i hardly like. i wish i just had crappy tastes. haha jk i didn't mean it....

my mom can't pronounce "peonies"..."pee-uh-nees"... she keeps calling them "pee-yo-nees" its weird. apparently they cost like $100 PER flower... ERRONEOUS!

And the dress i sort of liked in the magazine, was like $10,000!!!! WHAAA??? no wonder people prefer living together to marriage. if wedding planning is a factor, why not just avoid it at all costs, heh. i guess i am going to apply at starbucks. why not. just for now. not like i think its dumb to work at starbucks... i just don't want to plaster a smile on my face 20-40 hours a week serving the drink i hate most to a bunch of wannabee's and suits, and deal with cleaning up after them on top of it. boo.

i think i offended vannessa. or everyone is as busy as me. whooo knowsies.

i am hungry but eating sounds gross.

i started a website for our wedding. but when you click a broken link, it "redirects you" or something. it says "you are trying to view the old website.. redirecting to the new site" or something and then a bunch of random pop up windows just keep poping up until you control alt delete and shut down the browser.... erg. and i have to fix it because one time a porn pop up window came up... and if tim's grandma or something is viewing the site.. not good. no. it didn't exactly do the same thing when i tried it on my moms computer. it just made it freeze up until i closed it. still, can't take chances.

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there are no 'hole-in-the-wall' coffeee houses.

save the dates go out tomorrow.

I'm breaking out. I need to fix this a-sap. i just said a-sap. i bit my nails down to the nub. i am not so slowly going crazy.