hi. what does "jocund" mean? last nite at uturn the message freaked me out. It was about samson and that kid had issue to the maximus.. and he had the potential to be this great man of God and he was stupid and impatient and ended up dead under a building with his eyes gouged out. lovely. And his biggest issue was lust and impatience. And I thought about how impatient i am. and how I am going to end up under a building with my eyes gouged out too... yeah well maybe not to that extent but somewhat. People have told me that God is going to use me for something great than I know... but i am going to throw that away if I dont stop acting so stupid. Maybe its true and maybe not, but if it is... sheesh. I want nothing more than to do just that. maybe I already threw it away and its too late. I havent heard it lately. what does that say? so I took the bus to school today. I got there kinda late and couldnt take a test. O well. I went shopping with my mom. went to my drum lesson. and then jake showed me some stuff he made on photoshop and such. That was my day. I also called vannessa. cause i called her a couple days ago to apologize and she said shed call back and she didnt. so today i left a message apologizing for bothering her and that she can call if she wants and if not.. ok. and she didnt so.. ok. oi. on a happy note. *LA* my aunt and my cousin from missouri are coming on saturday. but I dont think we will actually seee them till sunday. that should be cool. erycka is a nut. its great. me and my mom were singing this song rebecca st james song in the car and she told me its about this guy who was on a boat with his family. and there was a storm and his family was killed and all this crazy awful stuff happened... but then he wrote that song and the chorus had this one line "it is well with my soul" ater everything that happened, it was ok cuz he didnt get discouraged or lose hope but he praised God with a song. it was cool. says I. hmm.. what else to say.. nothing. your freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. yes you! *shifty eyes* not your mattress. byes.