the air is coldd. the sky is bluuee. the slate is clear. and life is new. what a week man. I moved most of my junk to my moms. I made my bed. set up my computer. rearranged everything. and such. And it still feels like a prison cell. lol. its weird. the internet doesnt work yet. hopefully it works today or i wont stay.. I told her that the very first day and she agreed and then last night i couldnt get it to work and she had a fit about how it didnt matter and blah. oh but it does. besides i left my toothbrush here anyways and she was being a jerk. gah. but mostly i just wanted to curl up and die. its becoming more and more of a reality and its getting harder and harder to take in. but im on my girly time so im sure thats a huge part of why its soo hard. as always, perfect timing. lol. there are a lot of things Im looking forward to tho. Like being ale to run when i want and getting super skinny skinny. gettting my relationship with God back on track and going to church. hanging out with manuel. and stuff like that. i guess i'll go over to the mothers now and try to figure out that darn internet. I've been having some messed up dreams. yeah.