For my birthday, Tim also got me a package at this salon.. comes with massage and hair cut/style and nails etc.. its pretty neat. I could sure use a hair cut. I dunno what to do with it.

When i got home timmy had a cake on the table with candles in a heart shape :) They were trick candles! Those bastards took forever to blow out ! We went to Don Cuco's and I got a strawberry daiquiri. it was gross. but i drank it all because I didn't want to look like a weenie.

Appointment on Monday. So nervous.

Today was bad.

The house is messy. well cluttery. There's just no room for all this stuff.

I want to move. I want to get as far away from here as i can. I am so sick of this place. and the people. I want to start over. I am sick of assholes.

My mom sent me an email yesterday. what the heck is wrong with her? I don't even really want to get into it because I'll freak out.. but its really upsetting me. She's either really stupid or in denial. Or that big of a jerk. All are a possibility really...

I want to start a family.

That damn job site isn't working.. and if I don't register I can't get unemployment... I'm so sick of this damn condo... there is nothing to do. and i can't go out because i just don't want to.. its so out in the open.. every direction its like.. PEOPLE EVERYWHERE.. ever the park is right on the street. I miss the park by my old house. in the corner behind the school. and behind is the Bull (where bikers make ramps and stuff) but no one is ever over there. And I would run the track all by myself. It was nice.. now I can't run without people staring at me. I hate when people watch me run.. idk why.

I really wish Tim's dad would sell the building already.. I want to move so bad.

PHP is tedious... and.. involved. I can do it.. but learning it is hard.. I need to SEE how and why.. not read and try to figure it out myself. Like with CSS.. i took the class at coc and that's what helped the most.. even tho i didn't do good in the class.. I just suck at school.. I'm pretty good at CSS now. grr.

I'm gonna go read. since I don't feel like doing anything else. Maybe I'll watch a movie and work out after.