Today was pretty cool. Shot a gun for the very first time. (well i shot my ex bf's bb gun once. but only one time and it wasn't even close to the same thing lol) It wasn't as scary as i thought it'd be. I thought that when i shot, my hands and the gun would hit me in the face. it had some pull but it wasn't hard to resist it. I wasn't aiming correctly at first but once i knew the right way, i hit this one moving target 3 times in a row. and 5/6 shots in a row. And the target would fall and I'd hear Tim and his dad like "nice!" adn whatknot.. i felt pretty bad ass. yeah, I feel pretty confident now.. and you know... zombies are larger targets :} It was hecka loud tho. and we were wearing our pulls under headphones. it was pretty expensive tho. Timmy liked it a lot also, so we'll probably do it again really soon. We went with Tim's dad. Michelle stayed at the hotel. She's really cool and really nice. She is someone who you feel comfortable with right away, no awkwardness. She brought us flowers from the store. WE watched that movie Apocolypto. or however you spell it... it was crazy intense.. and crazy bloody.. I had my hands over my eyes half the time... i dunno why, i was peaking the whole time anyways lol. uhg i just hate when people get cut in the throat. it was a good movie tho. Tim's dad said that his aunt kim is a bitch lol. I guess his mom and his dad went to lunch and she said she talked to her about why she was all mad at us, and she told him she's a bitch, and that's it. she doesn't get her way, and she makes everyones life hell. I told him, i just don't understand what didn't go her way.. and they said she gets mad over nothing. Sounds like my mother. always has to be mad about something. nothing is ever good enough. whoa.... been a long time since I've thought about my family family. weird. I don't like it. lol. I've felt the best I have, the healthiest (mentally anyways) since I've cut them out of my life. Tim's family can be ... well it can just feel weird at times.. because they are my family too now. and its weird being an outsider and then coming in and feeling like a part of a family when I don't really know them... but I would rather have a hard time feeling like that with them then with my own family.. shouldn't be like that with your own family. especially when they treat an outsider better than you. anyways.. oh i got my first gun wound... nothing crazy, just a blood blister :[ the trigger pinched my finger :[ but its a lot better than other gun wounds... if you know what i mean... I've been so tired lately. no matter how much sleep or rest or whatever, i feel tired. my body aches. my muscles burn. my head.. uhg. I am on my period so that could be fueling the flame. but still... I would like to not feel this way :[ Timmy has been so affectionate.. and in front of people. lol. well he is always affectionate when we're alone... or in public too. but last time we were in front of his family, especially his dad's side, he wasn't this affectionate. that was a while ago tho.. and the whole aaron thing was still fresh, not that that should effect how affectionate he is but i understand why it did. but, well its nice. youtube is my new best friend. I have been learning so much from video tutorials. on flash and illustrator and photoshop. I had an idea of what illustrator was, but it intimidated me.... i had NO IDEA how amazing it is.. no idea. its its.. its beautiful :} the guys from work don't talk to me anymore. i know its hard to stay in touch when your not there anymore.. but i miss them. and i didn't want to lose them as friends. not that i have. but just doesn't feel the same. I wonder when we're going to have the end of project party. or if were still going to. not for the current project but the last one, Smash Hits. I think instead of a party, we should get everyone and go play paintball.. that'd be pretty close to amazing. i emailed that lady about our munchkin kitty. but she didn't reply. she said she'd send more pictures in a week. its been 11 days. grr. we might name his francis :} cute huh? Choli, Jefri and Francis...? sounds pretty nice. ouch :[ my back.. urg.