oi. i dont feel good. my tummy hurts. and im dizzy. but its otay. its not that bad. i wanna eat tho.. but i might puke up a lung. i went to church. gah.. why is everything so dumb? basically i think brett read that entry also.. and oi i saw him at church and i felt so.. dirty and embarrased.. cuz he knows things.. oi. he didnt need to know that stuff.. no one needed to.. stupid sitD. gah and i wanted to just apologize that he had to read that or i dunno.. something simple like that. but i dunno.. i didnt even muster the courage to say hi. i thought things would be ok now with him.. if he's going to the church i go to.. he shouldnt be weird with saying a simple "hi" but i guess it would be weird right now.. oi.. and sal.. bleh he totally ignored me.. i said hi and he just kept walking cuz he was with brett. and sal took me home tho.. and in the car brett called and sals like "dont say anything!" cuz he didnt want brett to get mad or something.. like he's ashamed to be my friend. and talya and me.. im really excited cuz were gonna be spending alot of time together soon.. well i was excited now i dont even know.. just confused. cuz sal and brett have been hanging out with jonathan white alot.. thats talyas brother.. and if theyre all gonna be hanging out alot.. and im gonna be making movies with talya and jamming and just all sortsa nonsense.. and eventually im gonna be seeing brett alot more. and whatever.. who cares but if he cant even be in a room with me.. gosh. its gonna be so awkward. one thing after the other. o well. just gonna have to see what happens. this is a poem i wrote for brody dalle and i posted it in her myspace so basically this isnt u but im going to forget i said that and... HI! I love you! i wrote you a poem because I LOVE YOU! its called "I LOVE YOU" i love brody she is hot i love brody like.. alot. you make my heart go pitter patter i want to smother you with batter if u died.. my heart would shatter? and i'd still love u if u were fatter i love brody.. holy cow i love brody take me nowwwwww! haha jk about the last part but i love you and u smell good.. anyways thats all for now. i'll be back. oh yeah... count on it.