ok so my drum lesson was ok. But I'm so sick of the basics. I want a challenge already. But o well.

After that on the way home i was talking to my mom even tho this morning she was so mad at me. and i was mad at her.her. cuz she said "I dont know if its because your lazy or stupid"

but i didnt care cuz i just needed to talk to someone. So I was talking to her on the way home and at home for a while. i was just venting mostly. about everything. She suggested I read a book called.. well... i wont say the name. that's just not neccessary right now. But I think i already know the answer if what she got from my rambling made her think of this book. I was talking about andres mostly. and last night and mike and sal and all that. blah. I guess everyone has their bad side... mike isnt as perfect as he comes off. and sal.. i dont know whats up with him lately. and im so sick of the competition. the drama. the girls. the nonsense. I had a dream last night. It was so out of nowhere and weird. but you know what.. its making me think. about what i reeeeeeally want. what do i want!? I already know. and maybe, I'm looking in the wrong places.

heh. for some reason implants came up.. and i was like "so what do you think about the pills?" and she said its bad. cuz marijuanna is natural but its still a drug. and such. but these pills are FDA approved soooo yeah. but yeah she said if i want to i have to pay for them myself. An overall estimate of $100. anyways... Im gonna go start reading this book. maybe i'll find some answers. I'm so sick of being clueless.