quick entry since i woke up earlier than needed...... I forgot to take a bcp last night. now when i take it today my stomach is going to kill me. stupid bcps. oh. but im going on new ones. ones that dont make you so fat! I am so fat! but then again my boobs will go away... tear. but at least they wont be swollen. the ups and downs are endless. the following may contain graphic images and may not be suitable for children: i guess the reason i forgot to take the bcp last night was because of some interesting events. firstly, i used a tampon. i know i know im 20 blah blah blah. but I am a virgin and "small" and and they scare me geez. and that fear was GREATLY(!!!!) justified last night. I dont care if I scare some 12 year old out of using them. They are the devil. (I'll probably use them again tho) BUt last night was just.. the worst. started out fine. felt free as a bird. a women if you will. and then. AND THEN! i remembered TSS and freaked out. and I read that its only after leaving it in for a long time so Im thinking "I'll avoid thaT!"... and decided to take it out a little early. bad idea. on the way to the bathroom i felt a little light headed but figured it was just my head playing tricks on me. well it wasnt coming out and instead of calming down... i got so nervous I decided to get up .lol I dont even know where i was going but when I got up I got all dizy. and at first it wasnt a big deal but then! things started getting blurry and grey. and i thought "omg! TSS!" And the more I thought it, the worse it got. And it was like i was watching myself about to faint and I couldnt do anything. I was looking for my phone to call my mom because tim was asleep and who wants their fiance to see them about to faint from getting a tampon stuck in their vagina? but then i was so messed up i started tripping and falling and i banged my head pretty good a few times. and then i said screw mom.. and started calling for tim and he came out and when he did i fell down and he didnt know what was going on and he kinda freaked out too. what a night. I'd go into detail but its a little embarrassing and a little much for my GP audience. now that i think about it its kinda funny... kinda. thinking i had TSS. actually its still kinda traumatizing. *shifty eyes* But one thing is for sure, my timmy is the best fiance` in the world. its nice to be reminded. anyways. normally I'm not that blunt (lies) but its early and I havent slept much and I say things like that ^^^ its sal's wedding today. Im going again. i wasnt and then i was and then i wasnt and now.. i am again. so it should be nice. alisha is going. grr i dont know what to wear. its going to be such a long day. after the wedding im going straight to my aunt and uncles 25th anniversary party. I hate bananas.