| today was cool at times and yet stressful at other.. times... limes... I went to church and heh everything felt directed at me. And it wasnt exactly good stuff. I dont know. It was like a slap in the face. And I dont know how to feel or what to think. If it is so wrong.. why doesn't Brett think so? I mean I have done that 2 times already to him. I couldnt do it again. And I know I am probably just being parinoid. More about this but my head hurts to think about it... Yesterday vannessa gave me my pictures from the second time i ever saw brett. hehe in the ROP class.. aw they are cute. kinda blurred but cute... brett's adorable. After church my family and some friends came over to celebrate easter again, cuz my brother wasnt here. Hehe we watched some of moulin rouge, a couple song scenes and then the end.. tear. And then sal was showing me how to do some sort o break dancy thingbut i suck eggs. Then we watched finding nemo and I went upstairs and called brett. I was supposed to clal vannessa back tonite but everyone wanted to go out to ice cream and i couldnt cuz it was too late by the time we got home... boo to mothers. But i did call the brett and yeah. good stuff. haha in the car i was talking and I accidently called brett on sal's cell without knowing and he heard my conversation with heather. He said I sounded a bit distressed. haha thats because I was talking about glen ugh. glen thinks I am immature (um glen.. i know i am).. so he decided to fish for information until he found something to put me down with.. infront of a bunch of people.. and that was mature. He was talking to us and making little jerky comments to me. Then he said "when I was a kid I wouldnt be here... I used to be a troublemaker.. I wasnt saved.." and I said well I would rather be immature, than unsaved". and I guess that triggered something in him to make me feel worthless or something.. Jake had to tell him to stop.. cuz who does that? I just dont think that was right.. maybe I am just being irrational, but someone else spoke up. i really think he would have kept going for as long as he could, cuz i wasnt talking.. just listening. its a fascinating thing listening to someone just shower you with insults when they havent even taken the time to get to know you. its cute really. urg.. i didnt realize it bothered me so much.. i wrote alot... Well wee went to eat ice cream at cold stone cuz the brother never had it. And there was this girl working there who looked kinda familiar and heather says "dont you know that girl?" and i said no. ANd then I found out i did know her. She was my old friend from my old church but its been like 3 years so she looked different. She remember my name and everything and i felt bad cuz i had to look at her name tag. But then I remembered everything and we exchanged phone #'s and email adds and such. Tomorrow I might go to the church baseball game if I dont babysit for the mothers loft meeting. I kinda want to babysit tho cuz the baby is wicked cute. |
Listening to: millencolin- duckpond
Feeling: insightful
heh your bucket is dirty again
vannessa