i dont know what it is. but. i've been soo emotional. some sort of hormonal imbalance. maybe its because my periods so messed up lately. well. maybe not just lately. maybe its always been messed up. I never really kept track until november last year. but since and including november, ive only had 2. one in november and one in february. thats 79 days between! and im waiting for the next and its not coming. so far its been 83 days.. i mean. this cant be healthy or normal. maybe its just stress. I'm not preggo that's for sure. So I must have cancer or something. all i know is that its screwing me up. i want to cry atthe stupidest things. or just cuz. especially about things that normally would make me cry. hmm. i cant find my phone. maybe i left it in my car. but i dont remember bringing it in the car. hopefully its not dead and somewhere stupid.maybe tim has it. maybe i left it at lisa's. no. bah. i wanna call timmy and see how things went. he's applying at thousand oaks on his lunch break. he's thinking of going to the honda in thousand oaks. and then to one like in columbus or something and then hopefully back to the one here in santa clarita. mechanics make their money by moving around a lot. otherwise i'd say just go to valencia. but they give u a raise when you start. so thats 3 raises. timmy says he doesnt wanna be a mechanic forever. he likes it but he wants to do something else for a career and have that on the side. but he would have to go back to school or work somewhere else to do anything else. it be so much easier if i had my web development certificate and finished some graphic design classes, i could be starting to get clients and making money that way. and eventually timmy wouldnt have to work and he could focus on school. hopefully by the time he's at valencia honda, if something goes wrong, he can just go to school and i can work. some 40 something y/o asian guy just knocked on my door. opened it. looked inside and left... it was weird. and when i went to see what happened.. he didnt speak englsih very good and started rambling about the weird stuff. so i locked my door.