Listening to: hanson- Mmmbop! hehe
Feeling: excited
i ate pastries! yum!MMM!M!M!MM!
so keyboaring was good yesterday. i didnt have my book with me for the first time and she picks THAT day to call on me to play a new song.. and i completely didnt know what i was doing.. i finally started figuring it out and she's like "almost and keep tempo" which is funny.. i should be able to keep tempo and then Roland started playing really quietly so i could play along. isnt that sweet? i like when people are randomly nice to me.
today was good and such... hung out with brett a little. hot pockets are magically delicious. i went to work. i left my sandwich in the fridge. it'll be old by monday. poo.
I was gonna meet my friend timothy at the coc library to study but it was closed. hehe when i first saw him he said he had something for me and pulled out a pink lemonade jolly rancher lollypop! lol. he said he went to 6 different places just to find them.. aww how cute is that? yeah it makes me smile like this.. *smiles* so since coc was gay and closed... we went to dinner and a movie instead haha a nice alternative to studying i'd say... we were gonna get sushi but there was like no parking so we went across the street to subway. and then we saw red eye... kinda corny. it was funny tho.. and it wasnt even supposed to be.. it was just so corny. hung out at my house for a little afterwards.. his sandwich was full of mayo and he will throw it away. no one knows.
I have come to the conclusion that.. Im crazy. yep. its official.. it works tho.
im so tired im falling alseep.
oh the lies. ohhhh the lies. yup. DEFINATELY another vannessa. Im okay with everything.. but its annoying and kinda obnoxious that im right... i asked for it tho. its funny how that works. i prayed that it wouldnt be like.. welll i just prayed that i wouldnt have to break up with sean. that he would break up with me if we needed to or something. cuz i was sick of hurting people. and i really didnt want to do it again. so i guess this works too.
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so today was really nice.
slept in till like 1:30 hehe woot i like sleep :) timothy took me to lunch. panda express. i hung out with him all day today. we watched napoleon dynamite so we can cross that off our list of things to do.. but then again i dont think it was on the list.. but yeah o well. and then we went to the park. and you know.. parks are always fun. goood times on the bouncy bridge... yeah. bouncy bridges. that sounds like a crazy character in a twisted disney movie.. um yeah... anyways.. went to my house and ate and such. my mom cut jakes hair. called sal to see if he wanted to go with us to the overnight lows show at SIR but he wanted to stay home. so we went and it turns out that they werent ever playing there like at all. and 5 other people called or showed up to a show that wasnt even going on.... stupid false advertisers. kinda sucked but timothy called his friend who was near us and we were gonna watch him Dj at this place.. but it wasnt really our thing so we left. welll we didnt even see the dude dj but we'd ahve to wait 30 minutes and i dunno it was mexican music and everything and it was kinda weird.. yeah so we tried to find something else to do but we couldnt think of anything. we went to his house and he played me a bunch of songs on the guitar. and and and.. we had orangade.. yeah that stuff is pretty flippin amazing. kinda like socks. kinda. i was just gonna go to bed when i got home. so tired. but.. i get into my room and something wakes me up. weird. still kinda tired i guess tho..
i feel weird lately. not good or bad just there.. like kinda like who cares..
OH! Jake knows the used!!!! well.. he met them! and and he HUGGED bert!!! i think bert is gay... I want to hug bert!!! thatd be cool. and quinn. quinn hates meat...
in other news... otherrrrrrr people who will remain nameless.. are so freaking confusing. so so so much so. very. yeah erg... this is how i felt a few days ago.. this song... its called king of sorrow. it was on bretts myspace a while ago. but pretend it says queen. nvm i'll make it easy and change all the kings to queen! yay...
"King Of Sorrow"
I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war
I died the night before
And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do
I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good
The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the queen of sorrow, yeah
The queen of sorrow
I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good
The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go
I'm the queen of sorrow, yeah
The queen of sorrow
I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone
Can say to take this away
It's just another day and nothing's any good
I'm the queen of sorrow, yeah
queen of sorrow
I'm the queen of sorrow, yeah
queen of sorrow
yeah. but now.. its more like... like "how soon is now?" by the smiths...
I am the son and the hier
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
I am the son and the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
There's a club if you'd like to go you
Could meet somebody who really loves you
So you go, and you stand on your own and
You leave on your own and you go home,
And you cry and you want to die.
When you say it's gonna happen "now",
When exactly do you mean? see I've already
Waited too long and all my hope is gone
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
yeah lol. maybe that doesnt describe what im feeling but close enough.
goodnite kiddlings.
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