Well the whole amanda situation has been squashed. she is so ridiculous. tim was just being truthful and she was being all dramatic about it saying that we were insecure with our relationship.. but she is the one who is single with 2 kids. so obvious she shouldnt be handing out relationship advice, its not working for her.. she can justify being friends with exes all she wants but it just doesnt work. and me and timmy both strongly agree about it.. and thats just how we choose to do things and she wants to tell us were stupid for it. she kept saying how it wasnt a big deal.. but if it wasnt then why was she arguing so much? why did she cry after? why did she KEEP sending messages even aftershe wrote... "this is the last time you will hurt me" if it wasnt a big deal? obviously she's still holding on to something. and she isnt the only one.. apparently her family or mom or grandma still have a picture of timmy framed in their house. she's like, "maybe after this, they'll finally take it down" psh. good. it should have been taken down a long time ago, what the heck? like they're still hopeful for some ccrazy reason.
anyways. so that was way stressful. tim handled it okay tho. i mean it was handled. its over.. so.. hopefully its just really over now. gosh. its just kinda really crummy that all his friends are her friends.
anyways so earlier in the day i went to babysit and that was okay. the kids are cute and such. But is there any games you caan play with a 3 year old girl that dont require being a princess? or babydolls? when i have a girl.. she's going to like cool things.. like ballet. and kickboxing. and video games. and being a zombie over a princess. no but it was fun. i work today too. which is better but not good enough... i have to pay so much this month... my ticket, half of my plane ticket, school, gas, food, insurance, etc...
uhg..
i miss waking up next to timmy. i dont like waking up alone. no one to cuddle with or kiss goodmorning and say hi or tell my crazy dreams to.. even if he doesnt reeeeally listen to the whole thing. i wouldnt either.. their weird. he said "soon". but i already know what it would take and I'm so far away from all my goals to even think about it anymore. Its hard not to sometimes tho..
im cold. and tired. its 7:30am.. i wanna sleeeep!
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