| whoa buddy its blazin hotin here, but i cant take off all my clothes because I took off my socks and my dog gave me a wierd look. I went to school. did nothing. my stalker was there. Maybe he has problems... Aww ya know what movie I wanna see again? Win a date with Tad Hamilton. Its really funny and I like the last scene (at least i think its the last scene) when he follows her and stops her and they dance in the street.. haha yeah so cheesy but its cute. Ya know what is kinky? When Ewan Mcgregor dances with the umbrella in moulin rouge.. nothin sexier than a guy dancing with an umbrella... cuz who does that? I want to go swimming. I'm getting if-E on this dred lock idea.. wont my head start to smell? Do I ever wash my hair? But what a time saver... i dont know what Im doing for the rest of the day.. write more soon... I want to make a marshmellow mask.... wouldnt that be cool? My brother is walking around my kitchen singing "where is the salt? where is the salt? where is the salt? hey hey hey hey.." 11:20 Well I hate my mother. I hate her. And I am not just saying that because I am mad at her. I cant stand her. I try. Ever since I can remember we didnt get along. but her and my brother were close. He was the smart, friendly, outgoing one and I was the stupid, introvert, insecure one... i told donivan and elaine about how when i was little and the fam would have video cameras and jason would be in like the whole thing, and when I would walk by and wave or anything to the camera theyd yell "jeni get out of the way" and such. I just told them that story cuz me and my brother look back at that and laugh and crack jokes but donivan was like "that sucks and was really mad that theyd do that" and i realized.. that does suck. I know I was the brat. the troublemaker. the annoying weird little girl in our family.. but I still needed to be loved... and my mom wonders why i am the way i am today. Why i do the things I do. She was so freaking obsessed with my brother that she didnt care about me. When jason left to the army she tried to get close to me.. but how can you build something that isnt there? why would i accept that? when all my life I felt that she rejected me.. and maybe she didnt completely. I mean she put food in my mouth and clothes on my back and all that great stuff i am thankful for. but she wasnt a mom. Whe jason went to the army, she was already close to him, already favored him.. so i guess becoming obsessed with him didnt come to me as such a shock. And I thought it was just me being selfish. I thought.. jeni eeryone thinks that their parents favor the other child, but its not just me. Ive been told over and over by people not only that my mom favors jason, but that she is obsessed with him. And I wouldnt even mention anything. Even Elaine! her best friend didnt want to come back to the easter thing at our house like she was going to because my mom was acting so crazy.. hmm.. i think she is gong thru menipause... she denies it... but Im seriously thinking about calling her doctor. I hate her. and jason... gah. he just is saying stuff. and i hate when he does that. cuz he'll criticize me and then act like everything is fine. but whatever. he's only here 2 weeks. Im not gonna waste it by being mad. |
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He needs saltby ilickdoorknobsListening to: taking back sunday- cute without the E
or eggs and llamas without legs.
hmm, maybe not but me and you are perfect. lol i dont know im weird :P
I'll pray for you or something!
That's really sad u_U
Alex