UHG These damn floors.. the bad news is they are still not done.. however the good news is that my uncle ruben and suzy's boyfriend jay are coming to do them for us on Tuesday :) woot. I hope that works out. It seems everything that can delay these floors being done is happening. I am sick of walking on concrete!...

We also decided to move to Bakersfield instead of Tehachapi.. it'll be easier on Tim and I wanted to be close to my grandparents but honestly Bakersfield will be close enough. I love my grandma but she drives me crazy. She puts manuel and alisha on pedastools, corina too but that i don't mind so much. I just don't get how she can praise them [manuel and alisha] so much for being such crappy people. especially manuel (whom apparently molested a young girl and is now going to be the father to a baby girl! UHG!). and don't even get me started on alisha. i am 2 seconds from just losing it and beating the crap out of her.. not that i ever would.. that's something she would do before i did being as barbaric as she is. its just how i feel every time i see her smug face.. someday someone will screw her over, use her, or just generally treat her like crap and i will be there with the same smug face. she is just simply the worst. she is fake and evil and well that is basically it. there's nothing more to her. she is a shell of a person. I just wish I didn't invest so much into her... trust, time, money and presents... for what? to get slapped in the face I guess.

Anyways on an awesome note.. Tim and I were stressing over taxes since the last 3 years we've taken them to this place and they never get us very much and we end up paying half of what we get back for them to do it plus it takes them forever. and last year they screwed up on top of it and had to redo them. they just don't seem to know what the ef they are doing.. so we opted to do them ourselves this year. and it was the best decision we ever made. we got almost 5 times more even with the $500 we have to pay back every year for that homeowner loan people got back in like 2008. and i had no idea I could get reimbursed up to $2500/year for going to school! So we got all that school tuition plus money for school books back. tim did them and it only took about 2 -3 hours and he said it was pretty easy. a tax accountant is pretty much a glorified data entry person. I cant believe we paid $200 for 3 years just to have someone spend over 2 weeks doing something we did in 2-3 hours!! uhg. but now we know and at least we found out now.. next year will be harder having a rental but tim says he still thinks it will be easier doing it ourselves. I told my mom and she scoffed at me like i don't know what i am talking about. like i never know what i am talking about. she knows we have been struggling with money after tim lost his job and waiting for this new job to start.. and i thought she would be happy for us. we got a break! but no. its never that simple with her. and i tell her things when i find stuff out that saves us money to maybe help her save money too but she is such a know it all stubborn person. she says "i don't own a house but..." and then proceeds to explain that it is better to have someone else do your taxes when you own a home... uh well like you JUST said.. you don't own a home so u don't know... seriously its just looking at a freaking form.. finding the matching empty box.. filling it in with a number and then doing that over and over until you are done.. how complicated is that? not very. idk i've been frustrated lately about how people in my family talk to me. i'm pretty much used to strangers talking to me like I'm a child but my family... i like that we are talking again but they talk to me like i am freaking mentally retarded when i am actually probably a lot smarter than them in a lot of ways. example... paint. uhg. both of them went on and on about the difference between gloss and flat paint, i know the freaking difference.. i have painted before thanks. i asked like 1 question and got a history lesson about paint throughout the day. but i kept my mouth shut and humored them because when i correct people or interrupt them and say as nicely as i can that i actually know what they are saying... they think i am being rude... and with family it usually or at least in the past turns into an argument because of the "rudeness" so i didn't say anything. but it annoys me because then like in the car on the way home from my grandmas we were talking about watching shows online and earlier that week i sent jason a link to the site I sure and he said "i don't know how to use that" and i was explaining it and he's like "don't talk to me like I'm stupid" and sounded all mad but i wasn't trying to sound condescending i was just saying how to do it.. i mean its pretty easy so its a little like someone saying they don't know how to go poop. haha poop. but seriously how do you explain that without sounding kinda condescending? not on purpose but because its freaking simple.. its not like i was explaining it when he hadn't asked... if someone says they don't know how to do something and i do.. i explain it. if he didn't need me to explain then why did he say he didn't know what to do with the link? I don't get that. but i stopped and tried to change what i was saying but really ended up saying the same thing because theres only do many ways to explain that sort of thing. my mom does it a lot too and then gets mad when she is being really ridiculous and almost purposely difficult and says i am making her feel stupid.. but she's another story. i just don't get her. I have a lot to say about what frustrates me about her but i don't really feel like getting into it . she wont ever change so what's the point.

my sleep pattern is freaking ridiculous. i woke up at 4pm today :/. I went to bed at 4am but could not sleep. at. all. I think i ended up getting collectively around 3 hours . bah.

we decided on a girls name we like better than our previous name.. granted we ever get the chance to use it *sigh*.. Aubrie. I first thought of it because of the actress Aubrey Plaza. She's one of my favorites (Parks and Recreation). And it wouldn't leave my head. So I told Tim and he liked it right away too. we want to start the adoption process as soon as we get settled in Bakersfield. We know it will take a while and since we only plan to be up there for 6 months - at most 9 - we may be back in Santa Clarita before we actually even get a baby. What we do know for sure is that by this time next year conceived or adopted we will have a family of 3. Even more amazing would be if we were to adopt and then miraculously have a baby soon after. well who knows.

hehe Dexter is fast sleeping and snoring. He's cute.

I miss Jefri. He's at my moms until the floors are done.