on the bright side...

I had some interesting dreams last night. First, I dreamt that Jefrie was as big as.. like 2 watermelons. and i cried cuz i want him to stay small forever. then i had a dream that was really colorful and ecentric. me and jenae were at this really awesome store with al these weird things and this guy and girl worked there. the girl was tall and kinda skany. she was leaning against the wall and bending over with her head on her thigh looking at me. and the guy was behind me. he was obviously gay. we went up to the counter and asked for something so the girl went to the back. while she was gone me or jenae grabbed something from behind the counter and walked out of the store. i dont know what it was. jenae's parents are divorced but in the dream we were in NY and they lived in this really awesome apartment that was crazy huge. her dad looked like a cross from the family guy dad and mr incredible. and her mom kinda looked like mrs incredible. she had 3 brothers too. her dad was showing me all this cool stuff and jenae went to her room to put the thing we took under her bed. when she came back the someone was at the door. it was andres. he said something and left. after that we went up to jenae's brothers room. they had bunk beds. we sat on the top and played the coolest video game that i cant even give justive unless i pulled you into my head so you could see for yourself. but it was so real looking. I guess in my dream i was living with them. so i went into my room and climbed up to my bed. it was a really cool hammock thing. the next day in the lviing room area thing, i forget why but jenaes dad said something about nsync. they were in the area and they were going to have lunch with a random family. we didnt know that. and jenaes dad told us and jenae said that we werent signed up for it so it'd never happen. then jenaes dad pulled out a letter. in the letter it said that our family was chosen. and it was for that day.. they went up to the room on the top of the apartment... the whole room was glass walls and her dad owned 3 jets so there was a landing pad thing... within minutes a jet landed and 5 guys get out and i have to say... it felt so real... cuz they walked over and jenaes dad let them in. right as everyone started shaking hands and giving little hugs.. I walked in.. and the room went silent. hehe this is my favorite part. everyone stopped and i stood looking around for justin cuz he was behind everyone. everyone just seemed to move out of his way without really moving at all.. and then he was walking right to me.i couldnt hold back a smile and then he grinned and took another step. he reached out his hand to shake my hand. my smile went flat and i put out my hand. he took it and pulled me in for a hug.. but right as he was about to hug me... my dream rewinded and it was back to where he was behind everyone.. they all moved out of the way the same as before and as soon as he saw me. he walked right to me and gently grabbed me and pulled me in to hug him before i could blink. i dont know how... but we ended up on the floor... if i remember right we were just hugging and we slowly just tipped over onto the floor. anad fell asleep. haha it was weird. then... it did it again. my dream rewinded but this time to the part where he walked right to me and gently grabbed me and such and hugged me and such. i didnt know what to do. the hug was lasting quite a bit and i thought maybe i wasnt letting go. i thought he'd think i was weird for hugging him that long... so i went to pull away but he held tight and moved his hands from my upped back to my waist. after a few moments.. he leaned back and smiled at me and said... I've been waiting for you. with a raise of a brow and tilt of my head... i was thinking "what the heck?" but wasnt about to say anything to ruin the moment. infact i couldnt open my mouth. he pushed some bangs from my face. and o yeah.. my hair was really long. he kissed my cheek andwispered something in my ear but i cant remember what it was. but it made me laugh... so then my dream kinda fast forwards a bit.. and andres comes over again. jenae gets the door cuz i am upstairs talking to justin. andres comes in and goes to play video games with jenaes brothers. jenae went to paint her toe nails in her room. I was eating ice cream in my hammock and justin was sitting in one of those egg like looking chairs in my room. but it was green and cooler. anywho... i had to pee so i said brb... i walked into the hall and saw andres enter jenaes room. so i followed him. for some reason she was wearing really short shorts and walking around her room with her shirt pulled up and talking about her belly button. andres said something about her stomach and i got mad but in my dream i couldnt figure out why.. so i walked away and went pee and went back to my room and justn was gone. so i went to find him. I wasnt paying attention and i walked right into andres who was just leaving jenaes room. we apologized and then i realized i liked him. which was weird cuz the whole tme in my dream.. i had no feelings towards him whatsoever. but i walked backwards into my room and shut the door. i went to my bed and fell asleep. when i woke up he was standing at the side. kinda creeped out i sat up and fell out of my hammock. it made a large vase on the other side of the room fall over so everyone started coming into the room. including justin. andres tried to help me up but justin pushed him out of the way unknowingly, just wanting to help me, and picked me up and kissed my forehead. i looked at andres and he had a blank expression.. a normal guy would be mad... when he wasnt i thought.. ok.. so i went with it and let justin carry me to wherever he was carrying me to. it was his car. we got in and he told me he wanted to take me somewhere special. and told me all these wonderful things... which were especially wonderful coming from justin cuz its like... who does that? he was telling me that i was so different and special and that he never met anyone like me.. u know, typical boy talk. but its my dream and he meant it. we started going and he sang to me as he drove. but it was weird. it was so beautiful. justins voice is beautiful and such, but in my dream it wasnt normal. indescribable. i dont remember what happened after that. i just remember lots of driving. and weird colors. oi. i wish i could remember all of it. there was a time when i would only dream of justin. and i havent had a dream like this in so long. where he is in it. its been like 6 months or something. and it felt SO real. i culd see every pore in his face and it blew me away. i could feel him staring back at me. i love that dream. ya know. maybe i love that dream so much because... through out the whole dream.. he was so in complete and total awe by me. He adored me. He wanted nothing more than to make me happy. and i think i had that dream because inside i want that so bad. not justin. but in my husband. its funny that it was justin tho. but in my dream, andres showed no direct interest in me. being at the foot of my bed could make u wonder maybe but nothing more than that. and he was in jenaes room and making her feel pretty and i felt ugly. this dream has so many connections to reality.