look at me

my depth perception must be off again

cuz this hurts deeper than i thought it did

it has not healed with time

it just shot down my spine

you look so beautiful tonight

reminds me how you laid us down

and gently smiled

before you destroyed my life

would you find it in your heart

to make this go away

and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart

to make this go away

and let me rest in pieces

look at me

my depth perception must be off again

you got much closer than i thought you did

Im in your reach

you held me in your hand

would you find it in your heart

to make this go away

and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart

to make this go away

and let me rest in pieces

yeah. thats a good song. i listened to the words a little closer. yeah. that wasnt good to do.

Im going to install photo shop right now so... write more later....

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I went to bed around 3... and i woke up at 7 cuz my mom was making so much noise. i tried to sleep but she woke me up around 8. we had to get up early today to go to a funeral for my aunt irene. i forgot my cd player at home so i couldnt sleep in the car cuz my mom played this cd of a speaker the whole way there. and it was loud and obnoxious. the funeral was ok, but it was long and the speaker dude was not funny and he was trying to be sometimes and i didnt like him. and i was so tired that i almost passed out a few times. after that we went to the reception and ate food. yum. i knew i wouldnt know too many people, so i brought a book to keep me company. i met some family. and then i found out my uncle joey is in the mafia.. or was.. who knows. it was funny scuz i told him "you look so italian, ever consider a career in the mafia?" and my mom goes "jeni, there is so much you dont know, thats the end of this conversation" and it was funny. i dont think Im supposed to talk about it... but he's italian and he looks like he could be in a movie with robert dinero. he dresses like it too. my other uncle who was married to my aunt aroura, i think he was joeys brother, he died but when he was alive i thought he was really cool too. and when i saw them together it reminded me of the mafia.. and now, its true... or something. dun dun dun.

ew. gross yucky... ever see the show henry and then andersons? yeah, you know henry the big hairy ape looking thing.. well my great uncle david looks JUST like him. haha.. only from certain angles.. but yeah and i was talking to him. and he kissed me. and i thought he was going for my cheek... BUT NO! he kissed me on the mouth.. my uncle. ew!!! but he was drinking alot. and he's really old. but it was tramatizing.

so now im home and i dont what to do...

intigrate tonite. yippee? that should be jolly... or something...

bye bye