Listening to: one republic- stopa nd stare
I am a reality tv junkie. cant help it and i dont care if its scripted. its intoxicating.
David Cook is is is.. the love of my musical heart. Besides justin t. He send chills down my spine. Serious.. I'm not like attracted to him tho. and whoever has his babies is going to have a very hard time squeezing out his offspring. i felt bad for me cuz of tim.. but that guys head is huge. HUGE! but his voice is like.. like an orgasm on the moon. lol. what?
QUIZZY TIME!
Who was the last person you laid in bed with?
the one and only timothy w frei
When was the last time you went to dinner? where? with who?
uhm. chi chis with my timmy bear
Do you own ugg's?
no i want some tho. i know theyre kinda trendy and i am not but they look so comfortable.
How did you do on the last test you took?
uhm. i got a C+ :/
Who was the last person of the opposite gender that you hugged?
my timmmyyyy a few hours ago when he went to sleep.
What are you most looking forward to?
getting a new job. being mrs jenifer charlene frei lol. better than belty.
Do you wear hollister?
no.
What food makes you sick?
anything with milk. sometimes sugar. caffeine. its a miracle I am alive right now..
Do you get nervous around the guy/girl you like?
well not anymore. i gots him. but yes in the past
Do you remember what you were like exactly one year ago?
uhm.. i was happy. newly engaged. we jut moved into this apartment. and everything was lovely. not much has changed..
Who was your last text from?
text about how many minutes i have
When was the last time you saw this person?
i have never met them. im sure its just a robot
Do you have pictures of you with your friends?
uhm. yeah... but not recently. unless u count tim.i do. he's my best.
Where are you right now?
computer room
Do you give special ringtones to certain people?
not enough people call me to go thru so much trouble
What's the weather like outside?
perfect
What are you eating?
nothing. i want chocolate..
What is your favorite holiday?
christmas
Where'd you get your clothing from:
thrift stores lol.
Do you text with t9 or abc?
i dont know. whichever really.
Have you memorized your social security number?
yeah like 5 years ago
Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
omg there was a time about a month ago when that was all i dreamed about.. i would wake up all sweaty and my eyes were allpuffy cuz i guess its possible to cry in ur sleep.. didnt know that.. and i would look over and just stare at tim because it felt so real. it was like at least 3 times a week for a month. i didnt really tell him about it. once or twice but i didnt want him to think i was like morbid. some of the stuff was pretty intense. not just tim tho. sometimes my mom. jason, my brother, a few times. jason whom i dated once or twice. brett once. manuel. myself. which is weird..
Are you spoiled?
honestly i was gonna say no but i thought about it and.. kinda.. :/
Do you like water?
yes ssir
Do you have a pet in the room with you?
noo he is sleeping outside
If you died today, would there be anything you wish you could've said?
yeah. so much to so many people.
What was the last book you read?
i was reading a long way down. but didnt finish. i kinda forget where i put it.
Are your nails painted right now?
nope.
When is your birthday?
oct 21st
Do you think your best friend(s) is/are the coolest person ever?
for reals.
Do you talk to people on the phone or im more?
mmm they probably balance each other out..
What color are your eyes?
brown
Do you have your ears pierced?
mhmm
Would you ever pierce your own belly button?
ouch no. infections are gross. ive seen too many people stupid enough to pierce their own bodies and it is always messy and bloody and a waste because it closes up and leaves a scar
Do you want any more piercings?
no thanks
Have your friends seen you cry?
mhm
are you annoyed with anyone right now?
lol oh yes. oh oh yes. a few people actually.
Have you ever had a panic attack?
i actually think i have. sometimes i get these flutter heart things.. tim has been getting them lately.. maybe its contagious.. maybe we're dying.
Name the last time you got really bored?
now..?
What's the last food you ate that was salted?
chips
quizzes. so addicting, yet never satisfying.
anyways.. sesame seeds are expensive.
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DONT READ BEYOND THIS POINT. serious. unless ur tim. its totally lovey dovey. complete mush. and u'll just think I'm being braggy.. that isnt the word.. u'll get sick of me and want to punch me in the face. for reals. but i'm just really thinky right now. i'm on my girly thing so I am just oh so full of emotion..
I remember a long time ago.. i dont know exactly when.. the same day my mom broker her elbow. like last year in august i think.. but me and tim had a fight. i thought we were breaking up i think. close to it anyways. and right before i get a phone call from my cousin telling me about my mom, he tells me he wants to marry me and asks if i want to go to las vegas and just elope right now. leave that night and be married by the morning. i was a little taken back because i was thinking.. we just had a fight... i dont think its the best time to run to vegas and elope. i remember laughing a little... because.. idk it was just funny. and i didn't have time to really answer because my cousin called right then. and i basically told him what happened to my mom and said i had to go over there to help her. and he said something like.. so what do u think.. [about vegas] and i told him i think we should go help my mom and just see what happens. but also by saying that.. i'm not saying no..just maybe not right now and that i didnt want to scare him away from asking me again. i wish i would have just turned off my phone.. packed a bag.. and made what would have been the best decision of my life. i really do. i want to be married right now. i want to be married to him so much it chokes me up. i remember when me and timmy met with pdk. and it was pretty ruff. because we just felt like he was trying to discourage us. and he told us to pray about it and make sure its what God wanted. and put God first. and i felt like he was trying to say that he didnt think God approved. like our answers would be inevitable. but i know that Tim is the one. i've known since I met him. I knew that being a christian was important to me and i know you can't change someone if they dont want to change and we wouldnt be together if he hadnt have been willing and didnt believe. but he had an interest before i even met him and i just never had a bad thought about it because i just knew it was okay. and it wouldnt be an issue. I cant see my life with anyone else. I cant see anyone understanding me like tim does. or accepting me. all of me. the good bad and the ugly. the unreasonable. the stubburn. the pessimistic. the worry wort. the frustrated. the basket case. the exasperating. the insecure. the troubled. random and beyond weird me. who could? he has put up with my family. my mother. he always tries to improve not just for me.. its just how he is. thats why he is so good at what he does and why I have always been so proud of him. he works hard at everything he does and he has integrity. he is patient and sweet and sincere. and cute and dorky and a goof. and totally homosexual. jk. he is sexy and smart and smells sensational. he should be a cologne. he is helpful and thoughtful and appreciative and i know he'll make a great husband. he is dependable and stable and dedicated and i know he'll make a good daddy when we start a family :] he is everything i wanted that i didn't know i needed. he isn't perfect of course. but i know one is more perfect for me. no one. and and i don't deserve him one bit. i just want to be able to call him my husband. i want to hear him say "well hello wife" for the first time. heh. or something. i mean i love our life now. I love when he comes home and puts his lunch box on the floor which can only mean one thing.. lunch box kisses. lol.. he's so tall. i love when he scratches my back when I'm on the computer or to help me fall asleep in bed because he knows its been hard. when I'm crying and he brushes my hair from my face and kisses my forehead and tells me its okay. when he does dishes just because he wants to be helpful. when he says thank you and hugs me from behind for doing.. anything.. like cleaning or cooking or something like that. i love when i say something he thinks is cute and he repeats me and its like a catch phrase for the rest of the day. i love talking to him. he listens. i love how much he respects me. almost 3 years and he has always respected my desire to wait. he's never pressured me. unlike some people grr. uhg. he forgives me for being an idiot. he lets me cry with him even if he has no idea why. even if i have no idea why heh. he believes in me even when i want to give up. he takes my thoughts and feelings into consideration. he apologizes when he knows he is wrong and forgives me before receiving one himself. he can stop a fight with a smile.. i think he is the only person in this world who is capable of such a thing. at least with me. he tries so hard not to tickle me.. but he just cant help it. i think its like some sort of addiction and he needs treatment and a detox center. he loves jefri because i love jeffy. even if sometimes he does stink. and if he chewed his nintendo chords :S we can talk about anything. from what happened at work that day to how we want to raise our children. i want to be married.
bah. i love you baby.
this wasn't supposed to be so long.
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