hi. I miss brett. I went to pet adventure and yeah I got the job, but not until this one girl leaves... but they dont know when. But no more than a week or 2. And tomorrow I will talk to Elaine about that assistant thingy, but my mom is acting so weird. I asked her for Elaines # and she was all stupid about. And I told her I just want to find out some information about the job and she said it doesnt matter because I dont want you working there... only because Elaine works there. Stupid mother. I hate her. ya know, I think I finally figured it out. My mother toldbrett that when our relationship is ok, I can call him again. But I think she is deliberately making it impossible because she never wants me to talk to him again. Shes always going on about how she wants to get closer to me but she can say it all she wants it wont change the way she treats me. And I have been trying. Me... it should be her. She is the adult. But no, I am the one putting out extra effort. I feel like I am licking the poo off her feet everytime I am in a room with her... I cant stand it. I literally cringe at the thought of hugging her. But, I do anyways. Not like it matters. I used to pray about our relationship but I have been so overwhelmed about this thing and brett and praying about those things... i mean you dont really focus on something that makes you want to rip out your eyes with golf clubs. I am annoying myself... I still miss brett. After pet adventure I was just going to take the bus to my school down the street but the bus wasnt coming and then this guy on a motorcycle honked at me and waved or whatever and it freaked me out. So I waited a few more minutes but impatience got the best of me. So Im walking away from the bus stop and I saw the motorcycle guy driving towards me so I turned and walked into kfc. I wanted to call my mother so I started walking to the gas station to use the pay phone.. and the guy was waiting there. He honked and waved me over to get on his bike.. so I walked faster and THEN! the pay phone was out of order. So I went around the back so he wouldnt follow me and walked over to the pay phone by big lots. My mom told me shed come right then. I was watching him and he was just sitting infront of the gas station just sitting forever, after a while he drove around a few times and left... freaky old men. or young men. I dont really know. He had a helmet on. ugh. Then 5 minutes later my mom comes... I could have been like raped or killed and she just takes her sweet time. thanks alot mom. well ok there was alot of traffic... but still. My mother took bianca to the vet today. She can barely walk. The vet said 10 years is really old for a dog her size and basically said shes gonna die soon... stupid vet. ya know I kinda like that jessica simpson... shes an idiot yes, but who isnt? And shes not fake. Shes stupid and ditzy... at least shes not a slut like britney spears and mrs. "Im so dirty and I think thats sexy". Uturn tomorrow. cant wait. NEEED it. big time. I am gonna go. but I'll probably be back. thank god I got this job, maybe now I'll have a life. I despise oval shaped tomatoes. its like 12 almost...be back in an hour. back. butter makes it better baby. grrr.. the private entry I wrote has 3 hits.. how is that possible? Its PRIVATE! ugh. I am bitter and parinoid. Hopefully no one read it. ouch my foot. my heel still hurts from that stupid piece of glass, i think it maybe get infected soon, not yet but I am certain of the possibility.