so. i talked to timmy last night. i basically said i need to go home because its not only the right thing to do, but we just need space sometimes. and also, i to deal with my past before i can have a future. with anyone. and i said its easy to want to marry someone when you're living together. maybe we both need to figure out if this is what we really want. he was really great. i kind of expected him to get mad at me.. nope. he listened and was really understanding and when i cried he just held me.. why does he have to be perfect now? grr. then my mom called. she said she was in texas for a conference. but she said she's coming home thursday. i really afraid about this. about being around my mother so much. and emotionally, if this is something i can handle right now. i guess i just have to. my cousin amelia has a dance recital on saturday. i want to go watch her and visit with the family. but i have no money. i love pretty in pink. its not as good as sixteen candles... but its pretty sexy. well. jaaaa guruuuuuuu deeeeevaaa OMmm. ------------------------------------------ I love my cousinly people. they're spectacular :) i wish we could spend more time together.