we had to put biaca to sleep. i didnt even get to hug her or anything. i didnt go because.. actually i dont know. i guess i thought if i didnt make a big deal out of it it wouldnt be.. and then my mom and jason came home and told me. and i felt stupid. i should have gone. i love Bianca. She was such a great dog. i was home alone yesterday cuz manuel went to a party thing and he wont be back till later today. my mom's out of town. and jason had soccer stuff all day. timmy caled and asked if we could talk. maybe go to cold stones or something. things have been kind of in a weird place with timmy. we werent reallly sure what we were or anything. but after last night, i just think everything going to be fine. or. i hope so. i guess we needed this. something extreme to happen to get me out of his apartment and back home. and then we could deal with things from there. but being there made everything so difficult. welll.. im gonna go get some foood...