Hehe HI! I'm randy! Ok wow.. I wanted to write this sunday but who has the time? mexico was awesome and I wanted to write a HUGE entry about every single detail.. but I dont think there is enough space in sitD for such nonsense. and my fingers will og on strike and die. BUT! I will sum it up and whatknot. here ya go...... It took about 6 hours with 2 stops to mexico. We went to help at an orphanage in rosalita mexico. We werent there even 20 minutes before all of us had kids on our laps. It was so great and thats all we really did that day. jUst got to know them a little and play with them. I was told the food would be ughfull and blah, but it wasnt. PDK said it was because last time they tried to make american food, but this time they made mexican food and it was pretty good. That first nite PDkept asking me if I was ok. I would say yeah but he gave me this look like I dont believe you kinda thing. I didnt really think about it. Just a chain reaction thing I guess. Later talya and jake were leading worship and all the kids were sitting on the floor. A little girl put brian on my lap. he's the baby. he was playing with my sweater zipper and giving me kisses on the cheek. roberto another little boy was sitting next to me and Mrs salz was just talking to me about the kids and how she didnt know how people could give up their kids like that and other things. PDK was across the room and mouthed "are you ok" again and I nodded yes and then i looked at brian, who had fallen asleep in my arms. And I looked around the room... my heart just completely broke and I had a hard time trying to hold back tears. Before I went to mexico people kept asking me "what do you want to do with your life?" and blah blah blah and I would say "i dunno". ANd I prayed before this missions trip that I would get some sort of guidance as to what I am going to do. anything. And when I looked at kids like Joel who is so smart and roberto who is the cutest little boy, and I felt very thankful and so heartbroken because they dont have the same oppurtunities like I do. we do. in the US. They are in mexico and yeah its not impossible to do something because your in mexico but they are orphans. They dont have their parents to support them. Alot of them dont have brothers or sisters to help them either. Its just them. And here I am all disconbobulated (hehe i love that word) cuz I dont know what I am going to do. And it sounds like corn with a y. but I can do anything and I have people who love me and support me. And actually, I still dont know what I want to do. But I do think the Lord showed me that I should be in childrens ministries at church. my mom and i have been talking about it, and I didnt want to for reasons that shouldnt be said. But thats where God wants to use me right now. So I am going to talk to mrs sandine this week. Being with those kids really got me to think out of myself. When I was with them, I wasnt thinking of anything but them. I didnt even realize that until the end. It was incredible how needed they made you feel and they just absorb every ounce of love you give them. Working the next day was really neat to. We all worked together. It was hot and painful and hot. and more painful BUT! It was actually really fun.. well I think. I dont know maybe thats just me. the ground wasnt level where they wanted to put more bunk houses. So we moved dirt from a huge pile over to this ditch in big buckets. I got to shovel at the end. and man, shoveling works your abs. After lunch we painted the main roomy thing place. And then the girls bunkhouse. At nite we went on taco runs. cuz theres like a taco stand on every corner... pretty much. I tried to make a call to a couple people.. but mexico and calling and me does not = good things. only bad and boo to that BUT! I got a huge glass coke and that made me happy. At nite we'd hang out and such and I got to know dawn, austin and rissy more. I got to know talya a little more cuz I already knew her. And jonathan opened up alot more. PDK used to want me to learn cockney rhyming. So he was gonna teach me again and EVERYONE was around. So EVERYONE wanted to learn. We went to the beach and t here was this awesome club place.. we didnt go there but we saw it and it had a huge stage and this bar.. well the bar was kinda dumb.. it had thongs hanging from the cieling. ew. But it was really cool looking cuz the walls were bambooish and other cool things. maybe its just me. I would have bought a camera but mrs salz sais that she took 300 pics on her digital cam and she'll burn me a copy. SO pictures are coming sooooooon! I cant wait! cuz i havent seen most of them. well i have to go, bye loves.