so this whole babysitting thing is getting ridiculous. and the even more ridiculous part is that SHE is thinking it is ridiculous. before. at the very beginning i'd babysit for her 4-5 days a week. from 4-6 hours a day. usually rounded out to 17-20 hrs a week. and it was fine. i was ok cuz i could do my hw and i had a job at best buy for some of it also. but then. quit best buy and dont regret it cuz i hate them, but then the babysitting thing got less and less until summer. and she thought she wouldnt need me anymore and so ive been looking other places. THEN she calls me up and says she'd like to know if i could do it again. and the way she asked... made it sound like it was basically the same. i mean. she almost made it sound like it'd be better. only in saugus instead of sand canyon. and she gives me the run around for like a week about exactly what iw ould be doing and finally tells me how she needs someone for like 3 hours 4 days a week and some saturdays but (and this is the most ridiculous of it all) she wants to know if i could do less than what she typically pays me, on saturdays because her and eric feel that its ridiculous to pay more for childcare than going out to eat. well. maybe it is a little much. but you know what. thats what happens when you have kids. thats what happens when u work and have kids. I would like her to find a english speaking person who she feels comfortable with and has a car to watch her kids for anything less than what she paysme. its not going to happen. especially with what shes asking for. so anyways. she told me on sunday what she would need and i straight up told her, listen. i will help you out for this week for sure but i think you need to find a back up because im not going to stop looking for a job and i cant base it around this just because i committed. i told her if something comes up, im out. in u know. "work tone" words of course. im a peach on the phone. anyways. so she said she'd call me tuesday night or wednesday morning to confirm. and tuesday i get a call from a weird # and dont answer. i dont answer weird #'s. it was her. didnt cal back because it was too late so i figured i'd call at 1. cuz i had to pick up a kid at 2. we already confirmed i really dont even know why i needed to call in the first place since she emailed me the directions and everything. so its 11 and she calls and i dont answer cuz im sleeping.. and i listen to her message and its so weird. usually, since ive known her.. she's so nice and sweet and whatever and its great but in the message, she was all like.. hostile. it was strange. but i know why. its because ive never said no to her before. last minute, im there even if i had plans. over time, no problem. drive them across town cuz she ccant make it, sure. make dinner, why not? and i was honest and told her i wouldnt be able to commit to this nonsense and she like was taken back i guess and now her whole attitude has changed with me. which is another plus for getting out of it as soon as possible. so i call her back and blah. i dont even know. the conversation was just awkward. and i tell her i didnt forget. i thought we confirmed it blah blah blah, im on it. and then she says yeah so pick him up at 3.. what? now its 3. yah so 3 hours just became 2,. but i let it go. and then she says yeah so sam has the key so if he's not home u wont be able to get in. so now, we have to wait in the scorching sun for sam to get home, lovely. and then she says, if jordan (her bf's 15 y/o daughter) is home, you dont have to stay. BAH? what is the point of even having me come at all? seriously. joey could just walk home. its like 3 blocks not even joking. him and sam used to walk twice as far from their old house. and she says idk what u wanna do if shes home u can stay or go. up to u. and then at the end she says see u at 4:30. and im thinking first of all... wasnt it 5? and now she's expecting me to stay?? so basically i have to drive tims gas guzzler all the way across town drive around looking for a parking spot for 15 minutes and wait for joe who is sitting 5 feet awat and we didnt even know it forlike 10 minutes. drive back to the house and jordan is there so i leave and drive ALL THE WAY BACK HOME. i wanted to shoot myself. i have never felt more taken advantage of in my life. and all she thinks is "my kidsmy kids my kids" which is great good for u. but u know what?? MY kids arent even going to exist if i shoot myself in the face.. geez. people are so inconsiderate. theyre so one sided. and i really have been holding my tongue but i feel like if she condesends me one more time with this nonsense, im going to blow. really am. yup. tim was proud that i did say that i couldnt do it tho. because it was really ahrd to even say that much. and i should. my mom and heather think she's ridiculous too. the stupid part is, she KNOWS i am trying to go to school. and she KNOWS i am trying to put a wedding together. and she also KNOWS i have rent to pay. yet she wants to pay me less? when she paid me withone income, and now she has 2 incomes for those kids and she wants to pay me less? i just want to say screw her and just not even show up tomorrow but im just not that kind of person dammit. and i guess it isnt the kids fault their parents are cheap as hell. i know for a fact that day care would cost twice as much if not more. bah. yeah i jusst needed to write it all out. now its out there and i can sleep or something.