hey all Me and brett are good. and yet I am so confused. And its funny, no really it is. Its like everytime things are ok in the world of jeni something pops up to confused the heck out of me. and its like moving too fast wasnt enough.. now my mom is filling my head with crazy thoughts and i dont like what shes making me think. I'll get over it. I'm the one.... the one. Why do I suddenly have this strange urge to wear all black and learn martial arts? The one... I am really really really starting to really really like him. like him. like him. echo. echo. echo. ha.. ok Im done. I dont even know what I am feeling. I think I might be going crazy. Yes. Lets just leave it at that. I hung out with jenae and jason today and it was cool. But i thought about brett the whole time and I hope he doesnt think I am psycho, cuz thats what I am acting like. I wish I could rewind and we could just be friends and have fun and slowly move into something... but we just jumped right into this crazy amazing thing that I'm not ready for. God he is going to read this probably... but oh well this is just how I'm feeling at the moment, Im sure it'll change.. always does. All i know is that vannessa reminded me of a quote from never been kissed that makes alot of sense right now......"And for one moment you get this amazing gift, and you wanna laugh, and you wanna cry... 'cause you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it'll go away all at the same time" ...yeah. Well I AM scared. Yeah I think I am just psyching myself out and my evil mind is playing these horrible games to make me think that what I am feeling is crazy or too soon, but its only because I am crazy. I dont really feel like that. anyways Im gonna shut up... I made sidewalk angels and jenae took a picture... and she took a picture of me hugging a pole. it was a kinky pole, almost too kinky. Haha me and jenae were flipping channels and there was a spanish soap opera called A MIllion TO Jaun... HAHA! I thought it was funny. I watched when harry met sally yesterday. hmm. is it possible to think to much? if not, it is now... my brain is fried... seriously its painful. I took a stupid quiz thing. Ya know one of those stupid things you get in emails that say "OMG ITS CREEPY HOW IT REALLY WORKS" well I was about to delete it before even opening it but I was so bored and just tried it. Bad move. Its a gay quiz, well not literally. I hate quizzes. I hate them with a passion. They toy with my emotions. I am such a girl. a stupid girl. I hate it. enough of you! meaning me... bye.