i am stressed out. i feel fine, and then it just hits. its weird. i dont know if its better or worse than it was a few weeks ago. or was it just a week ago? well whenever it was, i was having what my mother said sounded like an anxiety attack.. well several actually. but it was just this random pushing pressure in my chest that was mild and when something upset me or something, it would push more and more, kind of like i got the air knocked out of me.. ish. the feeling has mostly gone away since then. but now, instead of a steady discomfort.. i feel a very faint discomfort, and then when i get upset or something.. its not uncomfortable.. but painful. like sharp pains right above my heart. apparently my heart is fine but i dunno. i want a second opinion. i know my body and something isn't right. sometimes i have to sit up at night and catch my breath because i feel really claustrophobic and like someone is pressing on my chest. and on top of that... the other thing wrong with me isn't going away. i tried to look it up... but every time i read about.. that stuff... i pass out.. or almost pass out. its so weird... i feel fine and then i see a word, and i don't even have to know the meaning, but my eyes get cloudy and my head feels like its going to burst out my ears. and the chest pain comes and everything feels spinny. its all jason's fault. maybe not. i think i had the problem before him. but its gotten worse. and its not the being in front of a computer part either.. i thought that was it once, but its not... i am ALWAYS at the computer. always reading stuff.. and i am completely fine. its the subject... bleh. its really late. i should be sleeping. i went to bed with timmy at 12 last night. and he rubbed my back until i fell asleep. and it was nice. i like feeling like i slept all night and not all day. but for some reason i dont want to sleep. couldnt tell ya why. i should probably force myself. its 4:30am. uhg.