i hate how i hide how i feel. its probably the worst way to do it. I really do think i would be a great actress. indubidably. I stilll feel the way i did a couple days ago. 2 entries back. I saw my mom last night. I gave her my w-2. and she tried to talk to me in the middle of a gas station. and i couldnt hear her sometimes cuz all the cars and stuff and she got all mad. i hate that. i hate when she gets mad at me for things i cant prevent. when i was driving home i saw pastor marty and victoria. yeah. i dont even know who they are anymore. and they certainly do not know me. So I'm becoming obsessed with my book. I find the more and more of this feeling ive been having the past whatever days.. the more and more i am engaged in my book. And i hate that i like this book and the movie and the characters and the time and the way they were back then.. so much. Im so girly. I mean liking the book and movie is girly.. but im obsessed with them.. thats beyond girly. sheesh. Like seriously, im going nuts waiting for the movie to come out. i mean it wasnt even that good. well i liked it. maybe is just that i wish my life was worth telling. and im starting to realize its becoming the same dulling story of every other modern girl. bleh. HOWever, lets move on... Valentines day was nice, i woke up to a big stuffed animal frog holding a stuffed rose. it reminds me of mario brothers. So that was sweet of him. i like it. sometimes the smell of roses makes me nauseous.. so im glad this one is odorless. and i can squish it and it wont die:) I guess it was just a regular ol day tho. iwent to work. school. got out at 7:20ish and timme had work till latish. so i got home at like 8ish and he had just gotten home too. he made me lazagna. and then well. i got to do alot of reading. i like my book so thats good. woot. Mmm we had strawberry shortcake yesterday cuz i had a craving. and indulged. theres a rapist around jakes way. dont go out if you dont have an escort. Im realizing more and more how UNhigh maintenance just by living with people who are soo high maintenance. Should i be more so high? or should i wonder why they care so much? cuz i wonder... i think i like being Unhigh maintenance. i dont like the word either. its to annoying to say too many times in a paragraph.. moving on. i wanna watch jerry maguire for some reason. Im hungry. Oi. i still feel it. Oops. i forgot to call my mom. i'll do that now. grr.