oooh cwaaap... Ian has scared me out of having kids... HOME; a video about our Planet and you should probably watch it yeah yeah its really long.. but its pretty interesting considering its about our future and if we're in it and stuff... not that i didn't know this.. i just didn't know how bad.. i guess I haven't been paying attention.. like a lot of other people.. i have the desire to do something more than just recycle or plant a tree... I want to do something.. but I dunno what. dilemma. I wish i was smarter and knew the answers. or strong and could comfort people. or a doctor and heal people. i wish i was rich and could give food to the hungry.. i guess i could but not enough. we could everything we have an it still wouldn't be enough. i saw this other site after watching the video.. pretty crazy stuff... http://www.stopthehunger.com/ it makes you wonder about what's important. All the plans I've made don't seem to matter if there isn't anything to make them on. if a world doesn't exist, neither do i and neither do they. i used to want 3 kids. We've been talking about it a lot lately. and now it seems a little silly. Everything i wanted out of life always comes at a price. I don't care about being dramatic. Maybe people need to be a little more dramatic about this sort of thing. Yeah, yeah.. we're only passing through this life and earth is only temporary but while I am here I would really like to live.. not suffer.. I thought that's what hell was for.. or have we been so awful that the line between earth and hell has blurred? --------------------------------- i have been working out.. i dunno why.. i just had the urge to.. and i can't pass up that opportunity since i never have the urge to work out.. but its probably not a good idea at 3 or 4 in the morning. o well. i can't help it. I will regret this tomorrow. i talked myself out of going for a run at least. probably not the smartest thing to do.. going for a run at 3 am without telling my husband first.. and i don't think my phone is charged. and i don't even know where i would run to. I decided to try to increase my breasts.. just for kicks. key word .. try... always a fail but hey.. what the heck. I'll let you know how it turns out. you being sit d. and yeah, i know you could use the pointers.. lol.