E3 today. Haven't gone to sleep yet.. last night i stayed up till 6 playing the sims. i am so gay. I should be playing LA Noire. And I miss black ops. But I'm in sims mode for some weird reason. O well.

Sort of excited for yet dreading E3 tomorrow. There's good and bad things about last year and this year. I don't know what will be worse. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.. err laster today rather. At least thing year I'll be prepared. Last year I didn't know what to expect so i didn't think to bring a backpack or to go early before all the good stuff is gone. and to bring at least 1 water bottle and some snacks... everything is so expensive there a lemonade was like $5 and then they had free hamburgers but you had to wait out in the burning sun for almost an hour and it ended up being the nastiest hamburger I've EVER seen... and it didn't help that they named the different types of burgers really gross stuff. I forget an example but with words like puss and cum in the name. nasty. it was supposed to be a joke.. but the burgers were probably on the same level. and it wasn't even a burger.. all it had was the bread and a little puny thing of meat and nothing else. weird. And I am bringing my phone charger this time.. i ran out of battery real fast last time. and they have plugs all over. But last year at least I had someone to hangout with. This year I'm going alone... i guess I can bring my ipod and just keep my head down. but its unavoidable that I'm going to feel pretty lame.

We're going to try and get timmy in on wednesday tho. So that'll be cool. Hopefully he can. Last year amanda did. Even after they almost caught her. I'm not friends with either of the people i went with last year. her or casey. Amanda was really annoying and said things like "your logic is flawed" and could never be wrong about anything. casey was kinda the same only different. He also could never be wrong but he was really passive agressive about it. I guess thats one thing I can give amanda credit for... at least she says what she means and means what she says. Casey cant ever be wrong but then when you say that.. he says crap like "its not about right or wrong"... ok well then why are you still arguing to prove you are right.. hypocrite. passive agressiveness really pisses me off. If i ever get into a situation where a potential friend has passive agressive tendencies i am just not even going to pursue it.. because the thing with passive agressive people is.. you can't call them out on it... or it makes it worse. i have yet to figure out a solution that actually works in showing them what they are acting like and getting them to change. so now i just walk away. its hard sometimes.. like with casey. because he was my best friend. and i take titles and labels really seriously.. but there is a fine line between being able to overlook things and just let things roll off your shoulders.. and situations where you are being taken advantage of and treated poorly. its true that love is blind. but they dont tell you that applies to friendships too. any relationship. i didn't realize how i was being treated and i guess i didn't want to. he was my first "best" friend in a long time. i mean i have a few good friends. but no one i could call at 3 in the morning to talk to. or who i genuinely care about. but the feeling has to be mutual. and it doesn't matter if they say it. cliches are famous for a reason and actions speak louder than words. i do wish i was going with casey to e3. but. at the same time. i know being friends wasn't the best thing for me. might have been good for him.. i was a good friend. always there for him. but whatever. it is what it is.

Oh i really like how they planned things out this year. or.. how they made it easier for you to plan your day and stuff with this interactive website. it shows all the floorplans and where all the booths are its pretty neat! it's this here

Timmy is the best. I was saying how we need to go grocery shopping. maybe we could go wednesday or i could go on tuesday after e3. but he knows me so well he already knew that'd be a bad idea. or that i could probably not be up to it after such a long day. So he said he would go instead! He goes to the store for me sometimes and grocery shopping and stuff but its nice when he offers like this. I just like him. imma try and get him the MOST loot. haha not that i wasn't gonna try hard before...

I have to make an invoice for those banners i made... i never made an invoice before.. i'm sure its not that hard but still.

after the latest episode of the secret life (i know i am super gay) i don't know if i want a baby any time soon... i cried the entire ending. i am a noob.

anywho. still doing laundry. its almost 4. i'm going to hate myself tomorrow.