meh. I feel so weird. i miss working. I'm so lame. I mean i know i should be working but to want to... is kinda weird.. i just miss having something to fill my day. an entire day. ok maybe not as much as my last job was taking up but almost. i wish my friends lived closer. and i wish they could still be considered friends in 6 months from now.. because chances are.. i probably wont see most or all of the again :[ sadness. i get so bored. and i fell right back into my old sleeping pattern. i don't know how that happens. it just does. but i do like having lots of timmy time. lots of sleep. lots of time to learn things. and work out. although haven't been doing much of that this week... or months.. or ever. i did some yoga a couple weeks ago. my back hurts all the time :[ i dunno why.. well maybe i do. but Timmy sure has been getting better at popping it for me. he's a pro. sometimes it doesn't pop tho.. and it feels worse. and i feel like he just punched me in the back.. like a lot. and i wanna puke. So javascript is probably the most boring subject.. in life. seriously.. i just open a javascript book and want to tear my eyes out. idk what it is.. its like other subjects can be just as complicated or tedious or stupid.. but tolerable to an extent.. no tolerance for javascript. i am JS intolerant. happy news! the cat lady is sending some more pictures tomorrow.. or today now. she said in a week and its been 2 weeks.. more than 2 weeks. so i sent her an email like.. where's my pictures bitch? in more or less words.. okay i was polite.. yay can't wait. she said he is SO cute and not afraid of anything. aw that's good.. because he needs to be tough if he's gonna be Choli's brother. she's a little brat. and she knows it. jef always jsut wants to give her kisses and she swats him in the face ! :[ sad times. but yeah... yay for new kitten pictures. We might name him zombie, monster, mister, bird, Remi, or Francis. Depends, maybe we'll know tomorrow. it'd be funny to name him mel because then it would be "Mel" and "Choly". my tummy hurts. my head hurts too. i wanna get a trim. i wanna go to the beach. i wannaaaaaaaaaa read my zombie book. i should call my grandpa. altho.. he isn't really one for talking on the phone... but i don't think that matters in these types of situations.. but then again... who knows how long ago he was actuslly in the hospital. it might actually be worse calling so late... like... oh by the way... idk. sometimes its easier just pretending like my family.. everyone included.. just doesn't exist. yeah its mainly my mom and my brother i have a problem with... but they are all connected. and they would all have each others backs over mine... so i just don't like thinking about them. and most of the time i don't except this week... when i realized when Tim's dad and michelle came out.. how nice it to have family around. and it made me sad that my family is full of nazi's. (not actual nazi's)