he came back to kiss me goodbye. and say i love you. i was afraid he wouldnt. i didnt go back to sleep tho. i didnt even close my eyes. I got up and started packing. I really am going home this time. i havent even told my mom. but yesterday i wrote her an email saying thank you and im sorry. because she was right. i took her for granted. this was a good experience. ya know, you learn alot when your stupid. she replied saying she loves me and asked me if i'll come home now. so im going to. and i dont get my room. but its ok. i figure i should go sooner than later.. so i started packing this morning. so he doesnt have to help me or anything. its hard to know where to start. last nite was agonizing. i am such an idiot. thats the last time i try to cover things up like that. and thats the last time i dont talk about how i feel. if he asks. im gonna say. i dont like tiptoeing all the time. not like he's made me think i have to. i really dont know why i do.. i just do. but i dont want to anymore. im kinda scared. i dont want to lose timmy. but things are going to be different now. for the remainder of my time here. and when i go home. well. i guess i'll just wait and see. Im gonna get back to packing. _________________________________________ new pictures iin myspace. and new blog. and new background. be cool stay in school.