hmm.
i hate big ears on girls. its.. gross. and ew. i also hate couples that look like brother and sister. its creepy.
so. my mom called me this morning. i heard it and looked but didnt answer. i fell back asleep and listened to it when i woke up.. she said that i was right about manuel and that he does lie and blah blah blah and that she is leaving for thailand tomorrow and would like to say goodbye in case "her plane blows up". I'm dont know about her but for the rest of america.. saying something like that is just pretty freaking ridiculous. anyways.. and about manuel. so what that i was right. the only reason i told her he was liar was because 1. he is. (but you just gotta love people flaws and all.) and 2. i was being accussed of always stealing money from her and jason when it was reeeeally manuel. those are the only reasons because i was being attacked for things i didnt do. I mean i dont think she is a completely evil person. about 90% but 10% i think had good intentions when it came to manuel and wanting to be a good guardian but theres a line between wanting the best for someone and controlling someone. and maybe she had a right to get mad on easter. i dont know.. i wasnt there. but everyone said she deserved it and i believe them because every time i am in a fight with her i wish someone would randomly just come in and punch her in the face too.. she might have all the right intentions in the world.. but she wont ever get anywhere if she doesnt learn that she cant control everyone and every situation. be mad. be hurt. but dont throw peoples crap on the lawn.. and nonsense like that. she is an adult and she acts like a little kid.. yet she thought she could raise a man? look at jason. he is pathetic. and i, along with the rest of my family, feel bad for cambria. anyways. so i dont know. the whole message pissed me off. i guess anything she would have said would have.. what part of i dont want you in my life anymore doesnt she get? not 3 months or 5 or 6.. just.. dont. ever. and she calls and leaves messages and pretends like everything is ok.. like that my whole life can be erased because she didnt act completely psychotic in a phone call. bleh i dont care.
me and timmy got in a fight this morning because I'm stupid and accused him of stupid things that weren't even true.. but.. i mean I am depressed already and then i lost my job.. so depression plus excessive alone time equals excessive think time.. and that is never good. basically thought myself into a nervous wreck. but tim is amazing. i don't think there is a better person out there who could mesh so well with me. he knows exactly what to do. i can be so angry with him but he knows how to calm me down. and he listens to me. like really listens to me and hears me and tries to understand. i really do think we are a perfect balance of crazy and calm. i think God knew exactly what he was doing when he decided i should be with tim. everyone else would have given up on me a long time ago. its weird how in the middle of a fight you think your hurting your relationship. you say stupid things and hurtful things. i mean most of the things said are constructive and have a point but the other stuff finds its way in there somehow. and you think its going to be detrimental to the relationship and instead it just brings you closer.
so i figured out why my boobs suddenly feel a lot bigger. today especially.. i started my period which usually increases boob size but also.. since i forgot to take too many pills on my last pack, i had to start a new one. so instead of a month of no period.. it was a month and a half. so i'm assuming it has something to do with that. but it has put a motivation to look into finding natural ways to increase them.. i mean if something stupid like bcp's can do it.. im sure there are other ways. actually i heard sesame seeds do the trick. woot.
well.. off to make my timmy a yummy lunch. anddddddd smell him till i fall asleep.
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