Its hard reading this book. I like it. i like understanding myself. i feel like for the first time in my life i am starting to discover myself and see who i really am. but its hard hearing about all my flaws and the disadvantages of AS. And i feel like even the things that the book considers good characteristics of AS are not necessarily advantages for myself. Like some of the greatest minds in history has charcateristics of AS. Things like their visual mind and different way of thinking attributed to their success. I have a visual mind and different way of thinking too.. but I don't feel like its a good thing... not necessarily a bad thing either. but so many people with AS are genuises and great at something. and i can't help but feel cheated and angry when i read about things should have been for me. ANd how if i had the support and resources i deserved, i might actually be one of the genuises and great aspie minds. Everyone always said i had potential and i think they are right.. but I'll never know. there is only so much you can teach yourself. But, I'm glad at least that i am learning about myself and how to help others in my position. I just wish someone would have taken an interest in me when i was struggling in high school, instead of always accussing me of not trying or being lazy or being disrespectful etc etc etc uhg. And in addition to feeling angry and sad... disappointed and cheated... its frustrating seeing how I've made mistakes that could have been avoided if i knew more about myself. Just reading this book alone has already openned my eyes so much. I think its helped a lot. Of course, just reading isn't enough i know. But I'm working on it. everyday i mess up. But at least now i can recognize where i went wrong.

Anywho. I think the chapter i just finished, "Cognitive Abilities", has been the most informative. maybe its because its most fresh in my mind idk.