picked up Jefri a few days ago. he got an eye infection at my moms.. never happened here.. probably from being outside all the time. it was like straight out of a horror movie.. its better now and i think he's enjoying being back home. without that evil bunny Banana.

i think the reason i stay up all night is mostly because i secretly prefer to be alone. or maybe not. people are so overwhelming lately tho. its like the more stressed out i am and need sleep the more i stay up... i dont get it. its just how it is.

my mom is driving insane. i'm not sure what else there is to say or do anymore.

my brother doesn't contact me unless i contact him. its hard thinking of reasons to text him. but if i don't i wont hear from him. not sure what i did.

im missing people. no one imparticular. just people. from my past. friends, family, relationships, strangers that were just there and i never talked to, places, smells, sounds. everything feels like in montey python when the knight is running towards the castle and hes like running place for like ever hehe and then all of a sudden he's there stabbing those guys in the face.. or whatever.. like slow motion and then sped up 10 times faster to make up for it. i'm not sure what the point is.. it just is.

the house is coming along. finally got the floors done :) they look amazing.. some stuff i wish we did different but overall i love them.