I am screwed. Why do i do this? even this is wasting time but its in my head eating away at me and if I don't get it out I wont have room for anything else.. why do i procrastinate with everything?? I need to do so much homework by midnight... not going to happen. i hate homework. i hate deadlines. i love learning but school and me just do not get each other. i thought it was due to other factors not present at this time, but its not.. its me. I wanted to get up early so i had lots of time... but i couldn't. i couldn't go back to sleep last night after waking up at 3am. i couldn't wake up so i slept until like 2 something. now i have a project due by the 26th. and the extra credit is due too and i need that extra credit but i don't think I'll be able to do it. maybe i should give up on college all together and just go to some trade school. if i don't pass this class, i am just going to teach myself. with the internet. it will be a sign that that is the direction i have to go. not that i am going to give up. i don't want to do that. i hate being my own teacher. i like being told how to find information. i don't like finding it on my own. uhg.