there is only so much I've been doing... and yet so much more I am capable of.. why hold back? what is there to lose when there is absolutely nothing that i could gain? and ya know.. I am a little hungry... and after a 5 minute chat with the husband, we concluded that no one else would be stupid enough and so damn obvious. Get ready, it just got a whole lot worse.... --------------------------------------------------- ok ok. so i decided to give up for the night... But Rome wasn't built in a day right? This WILL NOT consume my life BUT given any opportunity to progress in this mission.. i will take it. However, i wont go looking for it.. (however, i will try not to go looking for it) unless i am bored and have nothing better to do. which actually happens a lot... But alas.. i have other things to accomplish much more important than this.. and i have to believe with much greater rewards. although revenge would be very rewarding at this point so maybe not.. revenge.. why is it looked at so negatively? don't hurt someone they won't hurt you. simple as that. people who hate revenge are people who bring on revenge to themselves. If i kick you in the face for no reason but because i am an ass face, i except you to react and probably kick me back. it would be rude to move out of the way in my opinion. but that's just me. but yeah, revenge... someday with hope and if not me, someone will eventually see what i saw and do what i wanted to do.. i just wish it was me.. :[ it would be a lot more fun that way. and and with someone video taping. if what happened was tapable. i actually don't exactly know what i am talking about.. kinda on purpose. to confuse you. you all. the world. When I think about this stuff, i get a little crazy.