Tim's friend George plays guitar for like independent films and such. He told Tim he needs a website. I'm not exactly sure if he has someone doing it or anything because Tim wanted to ask me before he told George I would do it. But I don't think he does yet. A while ago George mentioned it to Tim and Tim told him I do websites, so maybe he was bringing it up again on purpose.. like hinting that he needs one so Tim would suggest I'd do it.. so hopefully that comes through.

Timmy says he talks about me all the time. How I do websites and such and how we have so much in common. and he says that when i make him lunch all the other guys are jealous because his is the best. lol. i think i have the best husband in the world.

the more time goes by the more and more i feel like me and Tim are just like.. a different species or something. Its like we're cats and everyone else is a dog.

Like i couldn't even see myself with anyone else.. because it just wouldn't work. we're too different. and Tim and I are so alike. But perfectly different. He balances my crazy and I can light a fire in his belly. I was thinking the other day, after the conversation we had, i had a bunch of stupid after thoughts. and i told Timmy about some.. like how I just couldn't see him with Stephanie. It just wouldn't work. He agreed. What would they do? She smokes and parties and Tim hates smoke breath and parties. he says he'd much rather do "this stuff" as we hung our new curtains and played with Choli. plus she is too fat for him. most girls are. I think our bodies fit nicely together. hee. And she is just so.. boring. and he'd always have to hang around with that Brett kid. yes ANOTHER stupid Brett. its like their parents knew they would be stupid and named them Brett on purpose so that people would know. I guess I didn't get the "all Brett's are scum" memo. Oh well. better late then neverer. Everyone hated that kid in school and i befriended him because I am awesome and for like a second he wasn't that bad. then he went out with my friend Katie but he was gay.. like gay gay. everyone knew it but him.. and Katie. and i tried to tell Katie not to get too attached.. and then Brett turned evil. And guess what? shortly after, he came out. surprise surprise and Katie was crushed and blah blah blah.. people never listen to me. And also with Amanda.. ew. how miserable would he be with that chick? 2 kids from some other guy. gross. and she is even fatter than Stephanie. gross gross. and it works the other way too... Brett, Sean, Jason guy, Andblahsgajdka, absolutely anyone else i could possibly think of.. just wouldn't work. Brett is a pathological liar. like my cousin. they don't know they are.. they just are. so its sad.. because you almost feel bad for them but you can't because that's stupid. on some level, they know what they are doing. he's one of those people who will lie until they get caught and then make excuses after that. in his world he is never wrong. and that just wouldn't fly because, i can admit when i am wrong but if someone else is wrong and they don't admit it.. i freak out. FREAK OUT. and also.. he is such a pervert and all he cares about is sexual things. and how could you live with that long term? and he has hair growing out of his nose. gross. and all the other gross things I've mentioned before. He is just way too stubborn. and he thinks his excessive need to avoid confrontation, is a good thing.. nope. its bad. and Sean wouldn't work because he is too flirtatious. and he is one of those people who know that they are flirting and do it on purpose to see your reaction but if you confront them they act like they have no idea what your talking about.. its pretty lame. like he worked at Versace and he made a point to tell me in elaborate detail that in a few months there would be a swim suit thingy and tons of models would be flooding Versace to buy swim suits and during this time they don't care about dressing rooms they just walk around naked. and he's there to assist them. EF that. i pretty much messed things up and he broke up with me.. and turns out i was pretty darn spot on.. he ended up with a model (from that swim suit thing, i don't know.. but probably right? they don't just fall from the sky) but they lived together. and had a cat. hmmmm. he also had the most insanely obnoxious best friend. what is it with guys these days and their "best friends".. not just best friend, but former crush that they loved for so long but they didn't feel the same way friend.. and that's supposed to be comforting. she was all over him all the time. and he let her! gasp. so yeah.. not that he is a bad guy. he is actually a pretty stand up guy and i wish him the best.. and Jason is a freak. freakedy freak freak. and he is a little too cocky. i told him i was joking about that but i wasn't.. he is kind of like Brett in how his perception of himself is bloated far beyond what he actually is.. how normal people see him. its annoying. i would probably slowly go insane. and having sleepovers with ex girlfriends... not cool. how people think that's ok is beyond me. its when i think about these things i know God is watching out for me.. if he wasn't i might have actually ended up with one those crazy people and had a horrible life.. how often in life can a person say that they have truly found their soul mate? Sometimes i think God doesn't listen to me but obviously he does. The most important thing to me is this.. finding my soul mate and having a family. and that's happening. so all the other stuff doesn't matter.

i sent my brother a message on Myspace. he was a bigger dick than i thought he could be. but in a way i am glad. because it just proves my point again... how its not me. its him. and if my mom ever wants me and Timmy and our future family to be a part of her family.. she'll have to fix it through Jason. not me. it is annoying to continue to be called a brat by people who don't even know me. people who should know me because they are "family".. they form their opinions based on the past and stupid rumors. and they band together against me thinking they are right because its them against just me (and Tim). but they aren't right, and I don't have to doubt myself. i know who i am and what I've done and how hard I've tried and how many times I've attempted to be the "bigger person" only to be rejected. So, they should be ashamed of themselves. they are hypocrites.

hehe Choli likes The Hills too :] She likes Whitney...

i have to go.