Listening to: muffly sounds of aventine
Feeling: amazed
I'm siiiiiiiinging!!!! I'm sitting in a chair and I'm siiiiiiinging!!!!!
so Im at evans house. kinda weird cuz im just chillin on his computer and his family is home and i dont know any of them... and its awkwardish. seans outside with el band-o. thats spanish for "the band". i wanted to hang out with sean longer so he took me with him to practice but the thing is.. its 5 hours long and people arent allowed to go to practice, especially girlfriends. cuz theyre like a distraction or something :P we came late so really it was only 4. and i was in there with them for like an hour.. that was awesome cuz i didnt think theyd let me stay and listen at all. sean has a pretty drum set. i wanna hug it and write it homosexual poems of love. maybe wihtout the homosexual part... maybe. but yeah their studio dealy is sweet. i want one. sean thought i was bored but it was more like complete awe. theyre all sooooo talented. they all pretty much play every insturment and switch it up and its cool. adam and ramtin were late so thats why i got to stay for that hour.until till they got there and it was awesome. then adam got there and he plays bass and i was like whoa.. even more awesome. and then ramtin.. he's the screamer.. he was awesome tooo.. i need a new word. "neato".. but thats lame. but yeah.. sean... holy freaking cow. he is way too modest. he is an incredibly amazing drummer. and evan.. that kid is talented.. well they all are but poo... i wisah i was cool and in a band.. a good band. i got to hear the whole album. so that was shibby. 1 more hour and then theyre done... i think im gonna take a nap on that comfy lookin chair over yonder for a bit.. cuz no one.. i repeat NO ONE is online..not even on myspace. and all they have is msn.. who uses msn??? eh.. no one.. well.. i'll come back later and start from the beginning of the day. until then... PIECE!
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so today was pretty much really cool. well.. any day with a sean is really cool. we went to ventura and sean helped his mommy move some things. cuz she's in the process of moving her office downstairs. chris was still there and they taught me how to shoot. not like a gangster tho. cuz gangsters cant shoot. i hit the flower. i sprayed windex on sean... then we went with chris and the mother to some place and ate burritos. my burrito kind died and exploded all over the place. it was beautiful. i made seans mommy laugh. woot. um what else.. after that we went to some thrift stores but.. altho i love thrift stores.. i didnt wanna shop cuz shopping without getting is dumb and getting means spending and i dont like spending monies of the sean, or anyone. especially excessive spending. so we decided to go to the beach. well.. that plan backfire cuz someone had to go and wear a skirt today.. and it wasnt sean. haha but thatd be funny. yeah.. windy days and jeni in a skirt= BAD! and pretty much really embarrasing. i got to meet adam and then we went to the mall real fast to get a thingy cuz sean broke his sun glasses but they didnt have the thingy so we dropped off our film and went to his house and hung out until 5. got food. got film. gay pictures of jeni come to mind. and then we went to evans and yeah.. the first and last hours were great. good music mmmm. and a good nap mmmm. the middle 2 were kinda slow but way faster than i expected. time flies when ur on a computer. hehe i was sleeping when sean came in to say they were done and the first thing i see is seans face and he kissed me awake hehe that sounds funny. yeah, it was nice. so then we watched honey i shrunk the kids with adam and seans friend michelle and her bf. that movie is awesomely bad. or just really gay. either one.. and then sean took me home. yup. that was jenis day summed up in a little box.
so that was all good and jolly but.. i feel like im pushing sean away.. its weird. i havent even let him in yet but i think im so scared to lose this that im creating a wall around myself. and he knows it. and he's trying to get me to open up and stuff but i dont know how. i can think of a couple reasons i would do that but im not sure really. and i dont mean to at all.. just cant help it. i dunno. maybe i'll try and talk to him about it tomorrow.. today.
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