so so so so...

its tuesday and i had a somewhat busy day planned, but when do things ever go the way i intend for them to go? nevers. oi. so i was going to go to school at 1 but that didnt happen cuz i was fighting with my mom instead. so then i was going to go to the job fair at best buy but we werent talking and i was going to take the bus bust then i would have to wait around until i went to work and frankly i just wasnt in the mood. i know im dumb. cuz that would have been good for me. oi Im stupid. STUPID! well... finally my mother and i cooled down and she took me to work. I got there early so i went to savon and picked up my pics. only 16 came out. the ones from when brett came with me to the signal didnt come out and most of the ones of andres didnt come out. and some of the ones i randomly took of myself didnt come out... but the ones me and brett took at the church came out really good.. they're funny. and then one of sal, one of bianca, one of PM and zack's son seth in the church parking lot, and 3 of andres but you can only really see one. and a couple more that arent worth mentioning.

at work i covered toys, infants, boys, and girls.. which is alot! especially since little kids pull things off the hangers and throw things around. but luckily it was slow today.. but it was weird cuz it was messier than usual.. but i got everything done early so i helped sam in the men's dep. which is hard cuz guy's clothing is so heavy. my arms hurted. so since i was done early i secretly went shopping with sam. i found this cool little notebook and some cute photo albums. but i couldnt buy them today since we already closed but thursday. they played the nastiest cd at work while we cleaned.. for an hour and a half.. over and over again. it was rap which is bad enough and then the dude was cusssing every 5 seconds saying f this and that and using the GD word. grrr. and i saw matthew dancing to it... i thought he was almost cool but the kid smokes and dances to stupid music. kathy is really nice too. after work i returned clockwork orange. that movie was good but um.. sort of really bad. and sexual. very sexual. infact. it was too sexual. stop saying sexual? ok. yeah so returned that and then mother picked me up.

grr i am so mad. they still havent put me on register. they havent even shown me how. at all. the only time i ever see a register is when i clock in and out. and matthew has only been working there 1 day more than me and he is at register all the time. thats all he does. and kathy said that all the new people theyve hired have gone to stock for like a day and then just register. monica is at register too. thats all shes ever done. and im stuck in childrens. well. its not bad, until we close. closing sucks. cuz its so freaking messy. o well.

I want to go to the integrate christmas party but its on friday and i work... but i am going to call in sick. hehe. cuz i wanna go. but maybe i shouldnt go. cuz things. but who knows. i have to pay for it tomorrow at thrive. i forgot about thrive. i dont think it would be a bad thing if andres went. he should go. I mean this whole thing is just about hangin out and talking 24/7. a couple hours is ok. cuz we wont even be talking or anything. it doesnt have to be weird or something. same thing with sunday. lalala. this really isnt bad. since i work the days are going by really fast. and i do other things to pass the time. its all good.

saturday is lil jakey's bifday. excitingness. I feel bad cuz im never at uturn anymore and my mom says that he misses me. cuz jake and donovan are pretty much the people i would hang out with and act dumb with. so i want to get him something cool for his birthday. my moms gonna help me buy something for him from both of us. it should be fun. jakes friends are weird. nice weird.

i saw butterfly effect again.. i love that movie... but its so messed up.

i realize that i am completely obsessed with pictures. after finding those albums... all i have been wanting to do is buy them and im actually anxious.. to buy photo albums... i think im psycho...

monica said she was going to bring her old cd case today but she didnt even work today. she never works on tuesdays apparently. and i dont work on wendnesday. tear. i wanted that cd case. waiting sucks.

i had a weird dream. that my mom was near me and i wa talking to someone and then my mom told me that i was going to start my period in about a week. and i was sad about it. and then i wa on a plane. and i threw up. i dont remember if it was on the play or in the bathroom of the airport. but yeah then i woke up and remembered the part of the movie saved where she says "she got all that from a pregnancy test?" and then the part where she is throwing up in the bathroom and i was like hey cool were twins. and then i woke up and i was freaking out cuz i almost thought i was pregnant or it was a sign that i would be or something... but i have finally decided that dreams are not to be taken seriously. cuz i havent even had sex. and then i was thinking about if that ever happened and how weird it would be. cuz crissy my friend is pregnant. and she is not even 16 yet. oi.

i was dancing to ashlee simpson today in my room. after i fight with my mom, i got to forget about it cuz thinking about it only makes things worse so i put on some good tunes and dance till i am happy enough to be over everything. and i cant resist la musica. hehe i also puton dirty dancing and danced to that one song while i was getting ready. i love the music on there. its cuban. altho. i dont like the way they dance. in the movie. too creepy for the jeni. so yeah. you know... dancing rocks. try it today for a limited time only.

i have soo many gifts to buy people.. and like... no monies. poo.

i think im done.