i want to kill myself. i must be pretty weak.. i cant even survive my mother. i got went to court today in sylmar to pay a seat belt ticket. costed $64.it was kinda creepy cuz there were a whole bunch of hispanic boys and creepy white girls saying things like "i just got out and im going back in for 9 months" like they were proud. stupid kids. its bad... but... they looked happy. even being there at like the least happy placce you could be. I think that would be better than being here with my mom one more day. anyways.. we didnt see a judge or anything. just paid and left. After that my mom took me to school and such. she said to call her and she might be able to pick me up. otherwise take the bus. so i call her and she says she can pick me up. so we go and it was all fine and then she just went psycho and we started fighting and i cant even remember what about but at the end she said that i made her pick me up cuz im a spoiled princess.. but i was willing to take the bus... she didnt have to.. and she was getting all crazy. i dont know. i mean i dont think im spoiled.. earlier today i told her to not worry about the car situation and I'll just buy a bus pass so she doesnt have to drive me all over.. but she doesnt appriciate my efforts to make things easier for her. so i go home and I applied at payless a while ago.. but then i got hired at ross so i never followed up and then today they called me so i have an appointment tomorrow at 3.. or today actually. anywho.. after that work called to ask if i can come in. so i went from 5-10. and oi and ugh! I worked in the fitting room the whole time.. and the worst possible thing happened.. i was cleaning up and it was slow at the time so i decided to clean out the fitting rooms... no one had went into either one in like 30 or more minutes.. and so i go into the boys.. and holy shoes... theres a NAKED man just STADNING there. what was he doing just STANDING there? NAKED! Why was he naked? and in the middle of the fitting room... he wasnt behind a curtain or anything. and when he came out he has shirts... why did he take off his pants?! and even if he did have pants... why did he take off his under pant things.. GAH! anyways... shortly after that little awful and painful experiece of gross... i was stalked. not really but.. there were these like 4 hispanic dude guys. and one of them said hi to me so i said hi just thinking nice guy.. and then literally every 5 seconds one of them would walk by and look at me and at first i didnt kow they all knew each other and then they all stood infront of the fitting room and were talking and looking at me.. and i was like.. this is just great. and then one of them grabbed a shirt of the rack and asked me in spanish if i spoke spanish and i said no.. and he put the shirt back and left.. haha like that wasnt obvious. and then another one started asking me why i didnt speak spanish and i told him because i was never taught. and he asked me all these questions and it was annoying and i dont like being rude but he was freaking me out so i pretended like i didnt hear him after a while and he left. andres is encouraging me to take spanish at coc.. but im almost reluctant to take it cuz thats kinda what keeps the creepy mexican dude guys away. if u are a mexican dude guy reading this... helpful hint: DONT BE CREEPY! i saw ceaser! he wasnt working. shopping he was. he let me use his cell phone to call my mother. thats about it with that kid. but he looks different without his beanie on tho. he's got a fuzzy head. when my mom picked me up we didnt say that much but when we got home she went nuts and bolts again. i dont want to talk about it in this thingy. not cuz i cant just really lazy right now and dont feel like getting all worked up again. i pretty much did hw for the past 4 hours. that was fun. not really but it wasnt that bad. i wish i could concentrate for ong periods of time, cuz i was actually interesting in what i was reading, but i just couldnt finish. well i think i shall crash.. into a wall.. YAY! its 3 and im beat.