holy cow. that sucked. i wrote the hugest entry about.. well. everything im thinking.. and its gone. compltetly gone. i want to cry. well. today was interesting. i wrote about it in my huge entry.. i guess i shouldnt have saved it anyways. its for my own good. taking your problems out on paper (or online) is good and such.. but i really need to go to God. I guess that was a kick in the butt to do so.. ok God. here i come. Im sorry i didnt put you first. in other news.. seans show is on friday. im inviting some people so im not alone. i wasnt alone last time but im not sure who will be there and i want familiarity. i wanna be myself.. and i feel like i could with my own friends. better for everyone. woo hoo hoo. I am so freaking bitter right now its not even funny.