so today we went to ventura to shop for wedding dresses and look at other shops. but most of everything was closed cuz were stupid heads and went on a sunday. boo. I had fun tho. cousins are fun. all my cousins cept amelia were there. I assigned them all a task for my wedding lol. they didnt even see it coming. haha i hope they take it seriously tho cuz i really doo need the help. I think they will tho. especially alisha. But its hard to plan when u still dont have a site for either ceremony or recption. its becoming very annoying at this point. boo to me for procrastination and stupidity. and boo to california for being soo ugly and expensive.. 2 things that should not go together but all too oftendooo. stephnie said i could borrow her dress if i couldnt find a dress in time :) that was really sweet of her and it would be awesome cuz its almost what i want. But i really hope it doesnt come to that cuz i would love to be in love with the dress i wear. I wanna see it and know. me and tim are gonna do this thing but im not gonna say yet until its done so no one else steals my idea. but its gonna be awesome. and everyone's gonna want our babies. for true. i was going to ask jake salz to dj for my wedding reception but my mom kinda talked me out of it. she said he wouldnt do it for free or like cheapish but i think he might.. i mean we were close once. kinda. its jake. well. alisha's got entertainment so she's got it covered. at least thats what she said. i wanna invite all my old friends. i miss them and love them and we were all soo close once, even best friends, and i would love for them to be there but i havent seen them in years. i dunno if they'd think it was weird now. is it weird? they're on my myspace so its not like were strangers now. just dont talk or hang out. lol. but theyre all really fun and it'd be fun. plus i want younger people too. the glist is almost all over 30's. ew. i think i said it once in a entry a while ago but its kinda weird planning a wedding where jenae and vannessa arent my bridesmaids.. not that i want that anymore. i like that my cousins are all grown up and beautiful and able to be that for me. its just weird when u think something will go one way and it does a 180 and ur like whoa.. what the fup? but those arent the friends i was talking about inviting. oh yeah. after ventura we went down to zuma for church beach day. it was packed today! no parkign anywhere it took like 30-45 minutes just to find a place waaaaay down the street. sucked. fun day tho. not a lot of people showed up but it was cool. elaine was there. when she hugged me she called me daughter. she said donivan had hw but would have dropped everything to come if he knew i was going but tears, he didnt. i think im gonna work out tomorrow. i have to. i borrowed corina's shorts. she said they wre a size 3 and im sually 3-5 so i put them on and they were all lose and im like score! im shrinking! but then alisha told me they were a 5...boo :( but they were kinda baggy still. but it inspired me to work out nonetheless and thats just what im going to dooo. skim borading is hard. I fell on my arse all day! timmy and manuel were skim boarding all day and tried to teach me but my knee is still messed up but im pretty sure i just suck. Timmy got sunburnt :( kelly mcF is pregnant. its weird. and cute. and crazy. she said daniel does high end grpahic design and he doesnt have time for other projects that are not as good but still good paying, so she said she could like tell him to send em my way. sweet. the kathy griffin show is hilarious. i wanna be her friend. i could use the press. psh i bet i could get her more press than that porn star she went on a date with. seriously.. kathy? if ur reading, call me. i'll hook u up. wont be on the d list when im done with u. im exhausted.