hmm. today was nice. i went to the psych class but it was full. and so i spent a good hour in the caffeteria reading my book.. but then some chick sat in a booth away from me and she was reading too.. but out loud.. and i couldnt concentrate. sheesh. who does that? loud persons. keyboarding was fun. it was so basic but it was still fun.. i like the people in that class too. woot. tomorrow i have 3 classes but their all spread out. i hope i can move my 7am english class to 8 cuz oi.. waking up at 6:15 is not agreeing with me. bleh. so im gonna have to spend some time in the caffeteria again cuz im so cool like that. i do my best thinking in that stupid caffeteria lol.. seriously i wrote 3 pages front and back about what i was thinking.. and thats what entry "letters to no one" is.. and i weote more but i havent wrote it into an entry.. cuz i dont wanna have to do that everytime but i always lose loose papers. and i dont wanna lose my thoughts. sean picked me up afterwards and we returned some movies.. and then we got something i needed for drums. we went to tellys.. good stuff. lol did u kow that all the mail men get together and eat lunch? lol its funny! they were all in their uniforms and everything.. lol. yeah well.. i thought it was funny. hmm then we went to my house and kinda fell asleep on the big chair thing. lol that sounds bad but it wasnt like that. sheesh. i talked to elaine and talya last night. it was nice.. talking to girls. i think i wrote this already but really.. it was good. talya is awesome! i love her.. she totally made me feel great and like.. i can... i dont know.. i dont have to be afraid. she wouldnt even know she did thats but she did. and elaine has so much wisdom. i like getting my moms advice but sean said something that i dunno.. i wanted a different perspective cuz shes my mother and i know shes protective so maybe sometimes she is a lil bias.. but she likes sean alot too tho.. so her advice about him has been.. as far as im concerned.. right on. but like i said.. a second opinion is always good.. well. elaine just confirmed my thoughts. and my moms advice.. even talya did that. and it felt good to know im not psycho! :) im not a bad gf. im not a bad person. nope. and people can think that if their lil hearts desire to do so.. fine. who cares. i know my heart. and so does my jesus and he wants to give me the desires of my heart whether people agree with me or not. anyways.. i just liked the feedback i got. and wow. altho they brought me up alot.. afterwards.. i felt really stupid too. cuz. oi. nvm. but. i just think so little of myself and im seeing that now.. and i dont want to be like that. im not like that. im confident when i wanna be. i love myself. and i need to act like it and do what i need to do. i got to respect myself darn it and just speak up. lol what am i talking about?? nothing to write. i like my hair.. the dye makes it softer. its great. i dont even wanna wash it still cuz i like the texture right now. lol i know im gross. its only been a couple days.. well.. tomorrow will be 3. i took a shower.. just didnt wash my hair thats all. la. that is all i suppose. so my friend told me that coc has this wizard of OZ play.. i wanna see it! urg. i hope i can before they stop showing it. mmm i love this song.. aww. tear. i am SUCH a sap for cutesy songs. so am. so ammMMMmmm.