today was ok. i weigh 110 lbs :] woo timmy has the next 7 days off.. that'll be nice. i forgot about it even though he told me for the last 3 days i just realized it earlier today. weird. the final presidential debates were today. i didn't watch the first 2. i just caught the last half of the vice presidential debate. but today i was watching the last one online but my computer connection is so jacked up. i think its the router. well tim thinks. so we're going to get a new one. he said this one he bought used so its most likely the problem. but anyways.. i saw half of it and thats all my computer would give me. i kept reloading the page and waiting for it to go but the furthest it went was like 5 minutes before where it left off. grr. I'm going to try it again tomorrow. but from what i saw so far, john mccain is a bit of an ass. and he is so... all over the place. obama is not my favorite.. actually i don't have one but i don't like either but at least from what i saw he was giving straight forward answers and not changing the subject. john mccain just kept talking about what HE wanted to talk about and going back to previous discussions and just acting like a baby. and when the mediator dude would say to make it short he wouldn't listen and when he'd say next question mccain would be like "well real fast.. real fast.." and say something stupid. and the mediator dude would like motion for him to speed it up and he would just ramble on... it was so annoying. i decided i suck at figuring out whats going on... i mean i have a general idea but i don't know what a deficit is... and that seemed like something important to know... o well. i agree with however said we should just flip a coin. were screwed either way. anyways. my face broke out like crazy for the past day and a half or so.. not to worry.. its calming down. but g's.. its never gotten so bad. i can't wait till my birthday. BAH! its going to be fun i can feel it :] so i requested drain the blood by the distillers from mxtabs and they put it on the list. so far they have no pending requests so it shouldn't take very long I'm guessing. yay! finally a place to get random drum tabs no one has. oh and i made a profile because i needed to have an account to request a tab. and someone added me. so i made a whole profile thingy. I'm a nerd. and you like it. but yeah i can't wait to play drain the blood. can not. but i have to :/ its going to be sexual. in a non sexual sort of way... so i sent my cousin a message you know.. i try to engage in my family.. the ones who i figure aren't evil.. i try to invest thought into them. but nothing is received and I'm so done with one sided bullshit. how many times to do i have to say it for people to catch on? i put out effort, have a general interest and in some cases concern for people, and they don't appreciate that i care. so I'm done caring. not for "them" just... for a person who make its so ridiculous just to be a part of their life. who wants that? from now on i am sticking to myself and timmy.. and its me and timmy and if you want me as a friend, do something about it, and if not... get the ef out. like seriously. oooh you touch my tra lala... what?