"It's happ'ning all the time when i open my eyes Im still taken by suprise i hold sunlight and swallow fireflies and it makes me want to cry. I love you. I shall never grow up. make believe is much too fun can we go far away to the hhumming meadow? we were walking down and I had tangles in my hair but you make me feel so pretty you have shinning eyes yes like the forest lights and it makes me want to cry i love you." _____________________________________ im hungry. wedding planning is like punching yourself in the face. timmy holds me every night and kisses me every morning before work. could u ask for more? no sir. yesterday he wanted to make a homemade pizza but. we ended up ordering from dominos. i need to go to some sort of job agency. the one i went to is a dud. i thought i had more to say....... bridal show coming up. lisa called yesterdaycuz she saw a sign about it and wanted to see where i was at in planning and such. i thought that was pretty nice of her. apparently my mom thinks im moving back home or something. and that im not getting married. its stupid because she thinks that and yet she still gets offended when i dont ask her for wedding planning help. its like. pick a side and stay there. so Ive noticed since my boobs have gotten bigger. timmy likes to touch me a lot more. not that i oppose. they like the attention. I should do my hair.. but i have no gas. and no money. well i do but im not sure if i can make it to a bank. i should make some phone calls. yeah. another day at the house. Im hungry. i wish i was a boy sometimes. it's so easy for them to get a job. everyone says to work at starbucks but i hate coffee. im afraid i'll be tallking to some annoying customer and puke all over them. i feel like puking when i get nervous or anxious. and the coffee probably wont help. I'm talking to tim. "hold on i gotta order a sandwich", said tim. ok bye for now.