so i made chicken parmesan last night. it was really good. and my first time too. woot.
I got my hair streaked. hrmm. i dunno how i like it. actually.. i hate it. well, im getting used to it. uhg. its too much. i said a little but o well. hair is hair and what do i care anyways?
I saw my jefrie's precious babies:) they are so adorable. especially the runt. jefrie was a runt too. he was the cutest ever. now he is a grown manly bunny who only thinks of sex and pees and poops all over.. and he isnt very soft anymore cuz my mom keeps him outside most of the time cuz he's so smelly. and his fur got all jacked up and coarse. and he's kinda got a mean disposition... so much anger. but i think its because of being away from his mommy so long.. me. he misses me. and i him. some day i will take him away from my mothers house. he hates it as much as i did.
aaron= annoying as all heck. i want to tear off my arm just so i have something to throw at him. he was tolerable for a while but now.. ok he is still "tolerable" but gosh... i just want to rip out my eyes and jam them in my ears so i dont have to look or talk to him anymore. or at least for the rest of this month. uhg. i mean he is such an ungreatful person. greedy. and selfish. and omg soo very arrogant. and im gossiping. so im gonna move on to the next subject...
oi. its 2 and im not tired. not at all. but also.. i dont want to do anything. i dont even want to write this entry but.. i cant think of a better way to waste my time.. and a more agreeable way to distract my mind. from.. from stupid thoughts of nonsense. nonsense. i can be so stupid sometimes. and soo easily too. it makes me wonder how others manage to get along without messing up nearly as much...
me and timmy didnt look at castles the other day. we decided not to cuz they are so far away. but soon. bea and ryan came over for a little while. today we worked out for a little in the mini gym down the street. which was good. were gonna start going every sunday and wednesday. and i need it. we watched swing kids last night. it should be called nazi kids. cuz they only danced 3 times in the whole movie and for not very long either. i wish i could swing dance. Im gonna learn.
nothing else really to say..
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Im back!
and and and.. its almost 5 in the am! god im psycho. im gonna be so tired tomorrow and yet.. i am not the least bit tired. mmm well maybe a little. i wish i was cool enough to say something worth while.
AH! why when everything is fine i find or hear or think something bad? and and why why why when things are already as bad as i possibly think they could be for the moment.. do i stumble upon something that makes it 10times worse??? i mean ive been so great these past couple days. no worries. at least, i havent let myself worry. and its been good. but then it all just hit me like BAM! right in the face. and so i felt like POOOO and then gah.. i am not a snoopy person. i swear.. it just.. i guess im just a magnet to finding disturbing things that will haunt my thoughts. i hate notebooks. red ones. with words. to people. that arent me. but a someone in a place that isnt here. im not mad or jealous. cuz its no big deal. probably a really old notebook anyways. so.. yeah. but oi.
timmy's dad wants him and aaron to go out to colorado in a few weeks... like the 25th. and and thats cool. hmmm, what am i going to do in this apartment alone? scary. hmm. and also.. it makes me anxious.. because the far away place is colorado and the someone in the far away place is in the notebook. uhg. im going to sleep. and as almost always.... a smile covers all:)
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